Post by Jeszika on Feb 23, 2015 3:00:16 GMT -6
February 4, 2015
Following her binge at her place in the back of Prey, Carrie Winter now sleeps it off in a guest room in the home of Jezika Gautier just up the hall from the living room. Bethany Kenyon has only been gone back for a few minutes, Jeszika having brought her back here to pick up her car after Bethany stayed behind to clean up after Carrie while Jeszika and Kristian Devereaux brought Carrie here to get her away from her stash of illicit substances. Now, after an already tumultuous afternoon, Kristian sits on the couch as Jeszika enters the room. She pauses in the door way, hestitating, worried what Kris is gonna think of this whole situation. Both are wondering where things go from here.
Jeszika: I'm sorry you had to deal with that, Kris…
She stay standing by the door of the room unsure whether to go closer or not for fear of him being upset at her.
Kristian: Does this happen often?
Jeszika: It used to... a lot…
He nods slowly, taking it all in.
Kristian: Have you ever gone too far?
Jeszika: Depends on your definition of too far... but there has been time where I drunk myself so bad Beth had to give me CPR... that was after Melissa left and I felt like I had nothing to live for…
A tear trickles down her cheek unbidden.
Jeszika: I hate myself for getting that bad but it happened... I'd…
She bites her lip.
Jeszika: I'd understand if you wanted to leave now, Kris, but I did warn you…
Jeszika: I'm not good girlfriend material, Kris... Beth, Ash, Carrie, me... we're all damaged goods...
Kristian: Have any of you ever overdosed?
Jeszika shakes her head.
Jeszika: It never got that bad... very close sometimes, but not that bad...
Kristian nods to the hallway.
Kristian: What about her?
Jeszika: Not that I know of. At least she hasn’t since we've known her.
Kristian nods.
Kristian: How many of you are... addicts? Or, should I say, how many identify as such?
Jeszika looks down at her feet ashamed
Jeszika: Two of us... and we're both in this house....
She pauses, doing her best not to look him in the eye, for fear of the judgement she may see there.
Jeszika: Though it’s been a while since I've used or drank anything... There are many times I have wanted to, and it’s incredibly hard not to... If you hadn’t have pulled me back tonight there would be two of us here sleeping off a high…
Kristian: Were yours the same as hers?
Jeszika: Yes and others too…
Kristian: Others?
Jeszika: Whiskey, coke and painkillers were the main ones I used. All in excess, to numb the pain, I just didn’t want to feel anything anymore…
Kristian: Was it always like that?
Jeszika: Never that bad.... I've always been a party girl... but it’s gotten worse over time.
Kristian nods.
Kristian: What made you decide to stop?
Jeszika: When I got so bad I almost overdosed and Bethany had to give me CPR... Then I got so bad anger wise I almost got fired from my job... it was when I won the title actually... Aerynn got under my skin so much with the things she had done and said that I held a my move on too long, ref tried to get me to stop and I hit him…
She looks down and takes a deep breath.
Jeszika: It was then that I realized I needed help... I got counselling and everything in the time I was suspended from work... I tried to get better, as much as someone like me can.
Kristian: Did you ever use needles?
Jeszika shakes her head.
Jeszika: No... needles scared the hell of of me... phobia of mine to be honest…
Kristian: Has anybody else... that you know of?
Jeszika: Ash has... a couple of time.
Kristian: Her boyfriend, I heard, was bad a while back.
Jeszika: Yeah really bad... Aerynn made it worse too…
Jeszika sighs.
Jeszika: Which is why I said to you, it’s bad to be with me. People around me and my friends just seem to get hurt.
Kristian stands up and moves to her.
Kristian: And if I decide I love you, what then?
Jeszika looks up at him shocked.
Jeszika: You'd still love me after what you saw today?
Kristian: All I saw today was family racing to look after one of their own, what's not to love there?
Jeszika: But I almost gave in... I almost sucked all that cocaine up my nose today. If you hadn’t stopped me, I would have. How can you love that?
Kristian: Did you? Actually do it, I mean?
Jeszika shakes her head.
Jeszika: I didn’t... But if you weren’t there...
Kristian: But did you?
She shakes her head.
Jeszika: Only cause you stopped me.
Kristian: Do you plan on doing any right now?
Jeszika: I don't plan on it but if it was in front of me, I wouldn’t be able to stop myself. As it is, I really could use a drink of two just to calm my nerves, but I know a couple of drinks always turns in ten and me passed out like Carrie is…
Kristian ponders this for a second and then nods, smiling.
Kristian: We’ll have to work on that then.
Jeszika: You're one crazy man, you know that?
Kristian shrugs, still smiling.
Kristian: I have a cat that's the size of a dog and can dunk a basketball and you're just now figuring this out?
Jeszika: I just don't get what you see in me, I'm a drug addict who's cheated on every lover she's had, what redeeming qualities do I have? Hell, I even Kissed another person while I was with you, just a day after we started things… and yet you still accept us both into your life and you helped us today... why?
Kristian shrugs.
Kristian: So you don't have much practice with the whole relationship thing, so what? You're smart, talented, fun to be around, beautiful, sexy as hell and loyal to those that you love... that's someone to be cherished in my book.
She blushes.
Jeszika: And what about Carrie? Where does she fit?
Kristian: Where do you want her to?
Jeszika: By both our sides, I feel the same way for her as I do for you. But I would understand if you don't want to have a polyamorous relationship, few men would…
Kristian: And how many would get asked to even think about it by a lifelong lesbian with another lifelong lesbian in the picture?
Jeszika: Even fewer.
Kristian: Spose that's not something to be passed up then, is it?
Jeszika: So you’re serious about being with both of us? Even with all the baggage attached?
Kristian: I'd be willing to give it a shot, yes, but i think Carrie gets a vote too.
Jeszika: Yeah she does.
Just then, Carrie staggers into the room.
Carrie: I get a vote on what?
As she looks up, still rubbing her eyes, she sees Jeszika and Kristian both standing there and freezes.
Carrie: Holy... goddamn, do I have the worst fucking timing... I'm... I'm sorry, I'll just…
Jeszika: No... Carrie stay... we need to talk.
Carrie just stares at them
Carrie: We… do?
Jeszika: About us…
She signals between the three of them.
Carrie nods slowly, obviously nervous.
Carrie: Oh... ok.
Jeszika: What do you see the three of us as?
Carrie swallows hard.
Carrie: The woman I want... in a nice coupling... being pined for by the coked up third wheel…
Kristian shakes his head.
Kristian: You don't have to be…
Carrie: Don't have to... Mister, I'm the girl trying to get your girl to cheat on you!
Jeszika: It’s not cheating if he’s there too... it’s not cheating if it’s a three way relationship. Would you be willing to do that? Be with a woman, and a man, at the same time?
Carrie stares at her in shock.
Carrie: What?
Kristian nods.
Kristian: You're not trying to get her to cheat, you're my girlfriend's girlfriend…
Carrie's knees start to give out and Kristian rushes over, Jeszika coming with him as they catch Carrie.
Jeszika: Carrie, you ok?
Kristian: I think she was expecting this to be the end.
Jeszika: Yeah... she wasn’t the only one.
Kristian nods and guides both women to the couch. They sit down, Carrie between the other two.
Carrie: Why would you want me?
Jeszika: You’re hot, kind, loyal... why would we not, Hun?
Carrie turns to Kristian.
Carrie: You’d share?
Kristian nods.
Carrie: Where did she find you?
Jeszika: Same place I met you, in a bar. Not the same one of course, but much the same, I was down in the dumps and he approached me.
Kristian: Technically, I'd fixed her car first…
Jeszika: Well yeah, that’s true.
Carrie: Keep this one, Jezzy.
Jeszika: I intend to.
Carrie nods.
Carrie: I’m sorry…
She shakes her head.
Carrie: I don’t know what… I just… it was right there and I…
Kristian pats her hand.
Kristian: Have you always been like this?
Carrie shakes her head.
Carrie: No, I was only ever this bad before when I was making movies because I had to be really high to do it.
Kristian: Have you ever overdosed?
Carrie nods shamefully.
Carrie: Once… I snorted heroin by mistake and woke up two days later in the hospital.
Jeszika: Carrie... Do you think you can stop? With help?
Carrie: I’d slowed down…
Jeszika: I know you had, and I'm proud of you for that, Care....
Carrie: I just saw that... I know she didn't mean to let me see it, but I saw that video Nikki was watching and I…
Jeszika: Yeah... was hard for me to see that too. All this stuff with this guy following me and sending me stuff and all, we need to get through this together.
Carrie: We…
She pauses and nods slowly.
Carrie: We?
She looks between Jeszika and Kristian and then nods.
Carrie: We.
Jeszika: We're a team, Care, we face this together.
Carrie: You’re not afraid we’ll both fall?
Looking to Kristian and then back to Jeszika again, she swallows hard.
Carrie: Either of you?
Kristian shrugs.
Kristian: Have to take a leap of faith some time, right?
Carrie: And if we do?
Kristian smiles.
Kristian: Then I call for back-up and we pick you back up again.
Jeszika: Exactly.
Carrie: Ok.
Jeszika: I love you... Both of you, and I'd do anything to protect you.
Carrie: I love you too.
Kristian nods.
Jeszika: Say the words... I wanna hear you say it…
Kristian: I love you.
Jeszika turns to face him beckoning Carrie over at the same time. Kristian puts his hand out to Carrie.
Kristian: Call me, Kris…
Carrie nods, taking the hand.
Carrie: Call me Care Bear…
Kristian smiles.
Kristian: Because it’s what your loved ones call you?
Carrie nods.
Kristian: Ok, Care Bear.
Carrie smiles.
Carrie: Thank you… Kris.
Jeszika: Kris, Care Bear and Jezzy... what a trio we are...
Following her binge at her place in the back of Prey, Carrie Winter now sleeps it off in a guest room in the home of Jezika Gautier just up the hall from the living room. Bethany Kenyon has only been gone back for a few minutes, Jeszika having brought her back here to pick up her car after Bethany stayed behind to clean up after Carrie while Jeszika and Kristian Devereaux brought Carrie here to get her away from her stash of illicit substances. Now, after an already tumultuous afternoon, Kristian sits on the couch as Jeszika enters the room. She pauses in the door way, hestitating, worried what Kris is gonna think of this whole situation. Both are wondering where things go from here.
Jeszika: I'm sorry you had to deal with that, Kris…
She stay standing by the door of the room unsure whether to go closer or not for fear of him being upset at her.
Kristian: Does this happen often?
Jeszika: It used to... a lot…
He nods slowly, taking it all in.
Kristian: Have you ever gone too far?
Jeszika: Depends on your definition of too far... but there has been time where I drunk myself so bad Beth had to give me CPR... that was after Melissa left and I felt like I had nothing to live for…
A tear trickles down her cheek unbidden.
Jeszika: I hate myself for getting that bad but it happened... I'd…
She bites her lip.
Jeszika: I'd understand if you wanted to leave now, Kris, but I did warn you…
Jeszika: I'm not good girlfriend material, Kris... Beth, Ash, Carrie, me... we're all damaged goods...
Kristian: Have any of you ever overdosed?
Jeszika shakes her head.
Jeszika: It never got that bad... very close sometimes, but not that bad...
Kristian nods to the hallway.
Kristian: What about her?
Jeszika: Not that I know of. At least she hasn’t since we've known her.
Kristian nods.
Kristian: How many of you are... addicts? Or, should I say, how many identify as such?
Jeszika looks down at her feet ashamed
Jeszika: Two of us... and we're both in this house....
She pauses, doing her best not to look him in the eye, for fear of the judgement she may see there.
Jeszika: Though it’s been a while since I've used or drank anything... There are many times I have wanted to, and it’s incredibly hard not to... If you hadn’t have pulled me back tonight there would be two of us here sleeping off a high…
Kristian: Were yours the same as hers?
Jeszika: Yes and others too…
Kristian: Others?
Jeszika: Whiskey, coke and painkillers were the main ones I used. All in excess, to numb the pain, I just didn’t want to feel anything anymore…
Kristian: Was it always like that?
Jeszika: Never that bad.... I've always been a party girl... but it’s gotten worse over time.
Kristian nods.
Kristian: What made you decide to stop?
Jeszika: When I got so bad I almost overdosed and Bethany had to give me CPR... Then I got so bad anger wise I almost got fired from my job... it was when I won the title actually... Aerynn got under my skin so much with the things she had done and said that I held a my move on too long, ref tried to get me to stop and I hit him…
She looks down and takes a deep breath.
Jeszika: It was then that I realized I needed help... I got counselling and everything in the time I was suspended from work... I tried to get better, as much as someone like me can.
Kristian: Did you ever use needles?
Jeszika shakes her head.
Jeszika: No... needles scared the hell of of me... phobia of mine to be honest…
Kristian: Has anybody else... that you know of?
Jeszika: Ash has... a couple of time.
Kristian: Her boyfriend, I heard, was bad a while back.
Jeszika: Yeah really bad... Aerynn made it worse too…
Jeszika sighs.
Jeszika: Which is why I said to you, it’s bad to be with me. People around me and my friends just seem to get hurt.
Kristian stands up and moves to her.
Kristian: And if I decide I love you, what then?
Jeszika looks up at him shocked.
Jeszika: You'd still love me after what you saw today?
Kristian: All I saw today was family racing to look after one of their own, what's not to love there?
Jeszika: But I almost gave in... I almost sucked all that cocaine up my nose today. If you hadn’t stopped me, I would have. How can you love that?
Kristian: Did you? Actually do it, I mean?
Jeszika shakes her head.
Jeszika: I didn’t... But if you weren’t there...
Kristian: But did you?
She shakes her head.
Jeszika: Only cause you stopped me.
Kristian: Do you plan on doing any right now?
Jeszika: I don't plan on it but if it was in front of me, I wouldn’t be able to stop myself. As it is, I really could use a drink of two just to calm my nerves, but I know a couple of drinks always turns in ten and me passed out like Carrie is…
Kristian ponders this for a second and then nods, smiling.
Kristian: We’ll have to work on that then.
Jeszika: You're one crazy man, you know that?
Kristian shrugs, still smiling.
Kristian: I have a cat that's the size of a dog and can dunk a basketball and you're just now figuring this out?
Jeszika: I just don't get what you see in me, I'm a drug addict who's cheated on every lover she's had, what redeeming qualities do I have? Hell, I even Kissed another person while I was with you, just a day after we started things… and yet you still accept us both into your life and you helped us today... why?
Kristian shrugs.
Kristian: So you don't have much practice with the whole relationship thing, so what? You're smart, talented, fun to be around, beautiful, sexy as hell and loyal to those that you love... that's someone to be cherished in my book.
She blushes.
Jeszika: And what about Carrie? Where does she fit?
Kristian: Where do you want her to?
Jeszika: By both our sides, I feel the same way for her as I do for you. But I would understand if you don't want to have a polyamorous relationship, few men would…
Kristian: And how many would get asked to even think about it by a lifelong lesbian with another lifelong lesbian in the picture?
Jeszika: Even fewer.
Kristian: Spose that's not something to be passed up then, is it?
Jeszika: So you’re serious about being with both of us? Even with all the baggage attached?
Kristian: I'd be willing to give it a shot, yes, but i think Carrie gets a vote too.
Jeszika: Yeah she does.
Just then, Carrie staggers into the room.
Carrie: I get a vote on what?
As she looks up, still rubbing her eyes, she sees Jeszika and Kristian both standing there and freezes.
Carrie: Holy... goddamn, do I have the worst fucking timing... I'm... I'm sorry, I'll just…
Jeszika: No... Carrie stay... we need to talk.
Carrie just stares at them
Carrie: We… do?
Jeszika: About us…
She signals between the three of them.
Carrie nods slowly, obviously nervous.
Carrie: Oh... ok.
Jeszika: What do you see the three of us as?
Carrie swallows hard.
Carrie: The woman I want... in a nice coupling... being pined for by the coked up third wheel…
Kristian shakes his head.
Kristian: You don't have to be…
Carrie: Don't have to... Mister, I'm the girl trying to get your girl to cheat on you!
Jeszika: It’s not cheating if he’s there too... it’s not cheating if it’s a three way relationship. Would you be willing to do that? Be with a woman, and a man, at the same time?
Carrie stares at her in shock.
Carrie: What?
Kristian nods.
Kristian: You're not trying to get her to cheat, you're my girlfriend's girlfriend…
Carrie's knees start to give out and Kristian rushes over, Jeszika coming with him as they catch Carrie.
Jeszika: Carrie, you ok?
Kristian: I think she was expecting this to be the end.
Jeszika: Yeah... she wasn’t the only one.
Kristian nods and guides both women to the couch. They sit down, Carrie between the other two.
Carrie: Why would you want me?
Jeszika: You’re hot, kind, loyal... why would we not, Hun?
Carrie turns to Kristian.
Carrie: You’d share?
Kristian nods.
Carrie: Where did she find you?
Jeszika: Same place I met you, in a bar. Not the same one of course, but much the same, I was down in the dumps and he approached me.
Kristian: Technically, I'd fixed her car first…
Jeszika: Well yeah, that’s true.
Carrie: Keep this one, Jezzy.
Jeszika: I intend to.
Carrie nods.
Carrie: I’m sorry…
She shakes her head.
Carrie: I don’t know what… I just… it was right there and I…
Kristian pats her hand.
Kristian: Have you always been like this?
Carrie shakes her head.
Carrie: No, I was only ever this bad before when I was making movies because I had to be really high to do it.
Kristian: Have you ever overdosed?
Carrie nods shamefully.
Carrie: Once… I snorted heroin by mistake and woke up two days later in the hospital.
Jeszika: Carrie... Do you think you can stop? With help?
Carrie: I’d slowed down…
Jeszika: I know you had, and I'm proud of you for that, Care....
Carrie: I just saw that... I know she didn't mean to let me see it, but I saw that video Nikki was watching and I…
Jeszika: Yeah... was hard for me to see that too. All this stuff with this guy following me and sending me stuff and all, we need to get through this together.
Carrie: We…
She pauses and nods slowly.
Carrie: We?
She looks between Jeszika and Kristian and then nods.
Carrie: We.
Jeszika: We're a team, Care, we face this together.
Carrie: You’re not afraid we’ll both fall?
Looking to Kristian and then back to Jeszika again, she swallows hard.
Carrie: Either of you?
Kristian shrugs.
Kristian: Have to take a leap of faith some time, right?
Carrie: And if we do?
Kristian smiles.
Kristian: Then I call for back-up and we pick you back up again.
Jeszika: Exactly.
Carrie: Ok.
Jeszika: I love you... Both of you, and I'd do anything to protect you.
Carrie: I love you too.
Kristian nods.
Jeszika: Say the words... I wanna hear you say it…
Kristian: I love you.
Jeszika turns to face him beckoning Carrie over at the same time. Kristian puts his hand out to Carrie.
Kristian: Call me, Kris…
Carrie nods, taking the hand.
Carrie: Call me Care Bear…
Kristian smiles.
Kristian: Because it’s what your loved ones call you?
Carrie nods.
Kristian: Ok, Care Bear.
Carrie smiles.
Carrie: Thank you… Kris.
Jeszika: Kris, Care Bear and Jezzy... what a trio we are...
