Post by K.I.S.S. on Nov 21, 2014 23:48:37 GMT -6
November 16, 2014
Driving down the street, Bethany Kenyon guides her ancient ass Ford Explorer around a corner and to a familiar house she’s been to a million times before. She pulls up into the parking lot next to the black and yellow Camaro signifying the owner is home. Bethany turns her vehicle off and takes a deep breath. She opens the car door and slips out, closing it behind her. She walks up to the front door and rings the bell. Within a few seconds, the door opens to reveal the home’s owner, Bethany’s friend and stablemate, the UWA World Heavyweight Champion, Jeszika Gautier.
Jeszika Gautier: Hey B, how’s things?
Bethany shrugs.
Bethany Kenyon: Shouldn’t I be asking you that?
Jeszika shrugs as they both walk into the living room.
Jeszika Gautier: Goes both ways.
Bethany nods.
Bethany Kenyon: I’m…
She pauses and bites her lip.
Bethany Kenyon: Yeah… you?
Jeszika shrugs.
Jeszika Gautier: Getting there... less angry now, so that’s something. And I'm not crying all the time either... I'm just... meh…
Bethany nods.
Bethany Kenyon: So… what are we gonna do?
Jeszika Gautier: Well I'm getting help already. Had my second session yesterday and this morning, I went and spoke to Oliver.
Bethany nods.
Bethany Kenyon: Is that why this needed to be so late in the day…
Jeszika Gautier: Yeah, I wasn’t sure how long I'd be there but it went well. He's letting me be at the next show, not fighting, but I'm going to be there, watching. I think he's testing me to see how I'll react. If I'll be able to keep my cool and what not.
Bethany nods, exhaling forcefully as she sits down on the couch.
Bethany Kenyon: Ash’ll be happy to hear it assuming she hasn’t had another headache. She’s wanted to go out so badly…
As she trails off, a sad frown falls over her face.
Jeszika Gautier: How’s Ash doing? I'm sorry I haven’t been there for her more.
Bethany manages a smile.
Bethany Kenyon: She’s doing better, the concussion… she seems to be getting passed that.
Jeszika Gautier: That’s good.
Jeszika frowns.
Jeszika Gautier: Is everything ok, B?
Bethany shrugs.
Bethany Kenyon: She’s wanted to go out and I’ve…
She nods acknowledgingly.
Bethany Kenyon: I’ve been avoiding going to Prey.
Jeszika Gautier: Why? Are things not good between you and Carrie?
Bethany shakes her head.
Bethany Kenyon: No… I…
Swallowing hard, Bethany sits forward.
Bethany Kenyon: I don’t wanna impose on you, Jezzy. You’ve got enough to worry about without worrying about me too.
Jeszika Gautier: It’s fine B, you can talk to me, what’s wrong?
Her eyes moisten as she looks at Jeszika.
Bethany Kenyon: I haven’t gone to Prey because I know…
Jeszika Gautier: You think Carrie doesn’t want you there?
Bethany shrugs.
Bethany Kenyon: She was just different after what Aerynn did. I haven’t gone because I know, I know what she’s gonna say and I’m not ready to hear it yet and I know…
She bites her lip again as the tears start flowing.
Bethany Kenyon: I know if I hear that now, I’ll go find a bottle and more of everything than I’ve ever done before and I’ll go down a rabbit hole I’ll never come out of…
Jeszika Gautier: Oh, B…
She reaches out and hugs her friend.
Jeszika Gautier: Sounds like you might need some of Reva's special tea as well. Life really gone and shat all over us. All of us, we all need help, B, even if we don't want to admit it.
Bethany Kenyon: I’ve avoided going anywhere near that stuff because I’m scared if I go there, I’ll become Billy.
Jeszika Gautier: That’s why we need help, B. You should come see Reva with me, B. She can help…
Bethany Kenyon: I'm also scared of what Ashley will do if I tell her I don't wanna party anymore.
Jeszika Gautier: I'm sure she'll understand why, B. She loves you and I'm sure she'll support your decision no matter what.
Bethany Kenyon: Yeah, but she's always loved it more than us, Jezzy. I mean, Nik's practically gone straight edge, I can take it or leave it and I've felt like leaving it a lot more lately... you... sound like you don't want it so much anymore either but Ash? She practically begs us to go out almost every day…
Jeszika Gautier: Maybe she needs something else to help her feel better. Maybe she drinks make herself feel better…
Bethany nods sadly.
Bethany Kenyon: I think Billy's on something again too after Aerynn shot him up.
Jeszika Gautier: Just what we need…
Bethany nods.
Bethany Kenyon: I'm not sure what and I know Ash hasn't been doing it with him because the concussion has kept her home for the most part but... if she feels like we've abandoned her on that, she might…
Jeszika Gautier: We can't keep living like this, B. We have to do something…
Bethany Kenyon: Can I ask you something, Jezzy?
Jeszika Gautier: Anything, B.
Bethany sucks in a deep breath.
Bethany Kenyon: Do you see yourself as an addict?
Jeszika nods.
Jeszika Gautier: Yes.
Bethany Kenyon: What about me?
Jeszika nods.
Jeszika Gautier: We all are... or were at one point.
Nodding, Bethany swallows hard.
Bethany Kenyon: Is that what I did wrong?
Jeszika Gautier: No, B, you did nothing wrong... I did…
Bethany Kenyon: With Carrie…
Jeszika Gautier: She would have never got dragged into this, if it wasn’t for me... none of you would…
Bethany looks at Jeszika, tears streaming down her face.
Bethany Kenyon: Why doesn’t she want me anymore, Jezzy?
Jeszika Gautier: Did she say that to you? Or are you just worried that's how she feels?
Bethany shakes her head.
Bethany Kenyon: She hasn't said it yet…
Jeszika Gautier: Then you have nothing to worry about yet. Go talk to her, B. There's no point stressing over what ifs and maybes. She might be fine. You never know…
Bethany nods.
Bethany Kenyon: I don't know what I'll do if she does say that.
Jeszika Gautier: Whatever happens, I'll do whatever it takes to help you through it.
Bethany Kenyon: I just don’t want her to hate me…
Jeszika Gautier: Then talk to her, B... it's the best thing you can do right now…
Bethany nods and hugs Jeszika back.
Bethany Kenyon: I’m sorry I didn’t see how bad you were hurting, Jezzy.
Jeszika Gautier: Even I didn't, B... it's ok... I'm getting help now. That's all that matters.
Bethany Kenyon: If there’s anything I can do to help you, name it.
Jeszika Gautier: Same goes for you, B.
November 21, 2014
Bethany Kenyon walks across Prey and strides towards the door of the back room she knows so well. She slowly comes up to the door and raises a hand but stops short of actually knocking. Her hand hovers an inch above the door as she holds her breath, arguing with herself about whether she’s really ready for this conversation. Finally remembering to breathe, Bethany nods, closing her eyes. Her hand finally makes contact with the door and it opens. Carrie Winter stands there looking as apprehensive as Bethany does. The two just stare at each other for a second, neither really wanting to go down the road they know they’re already on.
Bethany Kenyon: Hi.
Carrie nods slowly, knowing how this is probably gonna go.
Carrie Winter: Hi.
Bethany steps back and Carrie moves to let her enter fully. As Bethany moves inside the room ever so slightly, Carrie closes the door but remains close to it, both women knowing they’ll probably need it sooner rather than later.
Bethany Kenyon: How are you?
Carrie swallows hard.
Carrie Winter: I've been better.
Bethany nods sadly as she leans against the door.
Bethany Kenyon: So...
Carrie nods and they both close their eyes, afraid to go on and even more afraid to stop now and leave it where they are.
Carrie Winter: I don't know where to start. You're beautiful and you're...
She shakes her head, opening her eyes just as Bethany opens hers.
Carrie Winter: I don't know what to do...
Bethany looks into Carrie’s face, apprehension washing over both of them in a giant tidal wave of horror.
Bethany Kenyon: With what?
Carrie shakes her head as they both start towards the rain.
Carrie Winter: Everything.
Desperate, Bethany takes a step.
Bethany Kenyon: Care...
Carrie raises a hand to stop her.
Carrie Winter: Don't...
Bethany stops right there and Carrie sucks in whatever air she can find to keep her nerve.
Carrie Winter: I know you mean well and you want make it all ok... but you can't. You can't make it all alright for me, for that guy who came to see me, for Jeszika, Ashley or that Irish cunt! I'm sorry, Bethany... but you can't have us all.
Bethany’s eyes go wide.
Bethany Kenyon: I...
Carrie just shakes her head sadly.
Carrie Winter: I can't look at you without seeing...
She pauses.
Carrie Winter: She beat me, Bethy... she beat me up bad and I know you tried to call her again. I also know you still look at...
She trails off again.
Carrie Winter: I know you want to love me, that you want to be there for me but you can't tell me you'd pick me over everyone else. And I can't... keep coming in last place...
Tears start rolling down Bethany’s face.
Bethany Kenyon: But you don't!
Carrie nods.
Carrie Winter: Yes I do, Bethy... every time... you try to help everybody and so help nobody and now...
She shakes her head again.
Carrie Winter: I love you Bethy but this isn't working. This... I'm sorry... I'm just... not working, I'm sorry. Maybe we can still be friends but... that's all we've really been anyway, friends with benefits and I need more than that. I deserve more and so do you.
Carrie nods, fighting back tears.
Carrie Winter: I'm sorry...
Inside the main area of Prey, Ashley Kenyon and Nikki Peltier sit at a far table just waiting to see what all might happen tonight. As Ashley leans back to search for Billy in the crowd, Nikki glances over and sees Bethany hurrying towards the front door.
Nikki Peltier: Oh no…
Ashley manages to look up.
Ashley Kenyon: What?
Nikki nods to the door as she pulls her phone from her pocket.
Bethany Kenyon: Bethy just went running out of here and Carrie isn’t coming out of her room…
Ashley looks over in that direction alarm.
Ashley Kenyon: They just…
Nikki nods as the phone rings.
Nikki Peltier: Jezzy?
Jeszika Gautier: Hello?
Nikki Peltier: Jezzy, are you home? I'm at Prey with Ash waiting for Billy to come back from the bathroom. Bethy just left... in a hurry…
Jeszika Gautier: Oh no... she talked to Carrie didn't she?
Nikki Peltier: Yeah and Carrie hasn't come out of her room.
Jeszika Gautier: Shit... ok, I'll hightail it and get to her place... here's hoping I can stop her before she does something she regrets.
Nikki Peltier: Ok, we’ll be coming too as soon as we can.
Fifteen minutes later, Jeszika pulls up to Bethany’s home and parks her Camaro next to Bethany’s old Ford Explorer. She pops out of her car and hurries up to the front door. Before she can knock, the door falls open.
Jeszika Gautier: B, are you in here?
She says this as she gingerly pushes the door the rest of the way open.
Bethany Kenyon: Bedroom.
Jeszika rushes down the hall following the voices instructions. As she comes around the corner, she finds Bethany on her knees in front of the nightstand next to the bed.
Bethany Kenyon: Hi…
As Jeszika moves in closer she can see in Bethany’s shaking hands is a box, a box Jezzy knows well.
Bethany’s gun...
Jeszika's eyes go wide and her voice is shakey when she speaks.
Jeszika Gautier: B... You don't have to do this…
With her voice shaking, Bethany manages a small nod.
Bethany Kenyon: Yes... yes, I do…
Jeszika Gautier: B, please... we love you... please... don't....
Jeszika looks horrified, frozen on the spot, not sure what to do. Bethany stands up and sets the box down on her bed.
Bethany Kenyon: Are Nik and Ash coming?
Jeszika frowns.
Jeszika Gautier: Yes, of course, they'll be here soon…
Bethany manages a nod, still making no eye contact.
Bethany Kenyon: Ok... do you think Nikki will take this with her for me? I…
Her teeth begin to chatter as the shaking starts to become too much to stave off.
Bethany Kenyon: I don't want... it... near…
Jeszika finally moves forward, taking the woman into her arms.
Jeszika Gautier: I'm sure she would, anything to help a sister, B.
Bethany manages a nod, still not letting herself look Jeszika in the eye.
Bethany Kenyon: Can we go... dump out all the liquor here? I…
Unable to keep going, Bethany looks Jeszika in the eyes and can't hold it back any longer. Tears stream down her face as a high, mournful wail escapes her lips. Jeszika holds her tight, shushing her gently like a child.
Jeszika Gautier: Of course we can, B... we'll get rid of it all…
Bethany nods, sobbing.
Bethany Kenyon: Why don’t she want me, Jezzy?
Jeszika Gautier: I don't know, B... I wish I could answer that, but I can't…
Just as she starts crying harder again, Nikki's voice drifts in from the front door.
Nikki Peltier: Bethy? Jezzy?
Jeszika Gautier: We're in the bedroom.
Seconds later, Nikki and Ashley come into the room with Billy right behind them.
Nikki Peltier: Is she?
Jeszika Gautier: She'll be ok. She wants you to take her gun and hide it and all alcohol and drugs in the house, we need gone.
Nikki nods.
Nikki Peltier: Done.
Ashley nods to her boyfriend and points him to the kitchen.
Ashley Kenyon: Come on, we'll go empty the liquor cabinet. If she has anything else, it'll be in there too.
As Ashley and Billy hurry off, Nikki steps passed them and flips the box open.
Nikki Peltier: Is this the only piece you have in the house?
Bethany nods.
Bethany Kenyon: Yes.
Nikki nods, flips the box closed and picks it up.
Nikki Peltier: It'll be out of your house presently.
Jeszika Gautier: Thank you Nikki…
She looks down at Bethany.
Jeszika Gautier: It'll be ok, B... you can make it through this.
Bethany starts to nod but suddenly finds she can’t stand up anymore. She sits down on the bed, as Nikki quickly disappears with the box.
Bethany Kenyon: Do you think somebody could stay over the next couple of days?
Jeszika Gautier: I will, B, anything for you.
Bethany nods gratefully.
Bethany Kenyon: Thank you, Jezzy... I'm…
She bites her lip trying not to just burst into tears again.
Bethany Kenyon: I'm sorry... I didn't mean to scare…
Jeszika Gautier: It’s ok, B... I'm just glad you're ok. I know you probably feel like you can't make it through this right now, but you will, in time.
Bethany nods, the tears coming back all over again. Nikki, Ashley and Billy come back into the room as Jeszika sits down and lets Bethany cry on her shoulder. Nikki and Ashley waste no time in climbing onto the bed and latching on to their two friends and sisters while Billy stands awkwardly by the door.
Bethany Kenyon: Thank you… I love you guys…
Jeszika Gautier: Love you too, B.
Several hours later, everyone else is asleep while Bethany stares at her laptop from her bed. Tears stream down her face as she sits there trying to compose herself.
Bethany Kenyon: Come on, you can do this…
She wipes away the tears and swallows hard before turning on the camera.
Bethany Kenyon: So…
She pauses, taking in a deep breath.
Bethany Kenyon: Ashley keeps asking why even though Aerynn’s answered that a couple of times and no matter how much or how little sense anyone thinks it makes, it’s the one we’re getting. Aerynn feels abandoned because she says nobody tried to keep her from going over the edge…
She pauses, shaking her head sadly.
Bethany Kenyon: You’re wrong, Aerynn.
Finally looking up, Bethany nods to the camera.
Bethany Kenyon: I tried! When everyone else told me not to bother anymore, I kept going. You’re right that everyone else eventually labeled you a lost cause and they all took their turns saying, “Bethy, let her go, you’re just going to get hurt. Bethy, stop trying, you can’t save her. Bethy, give it up, she’s jumped and doesn’t want your help!”
Tears start to well up in her eyes again.
Bethany Kenyon: I tried and you told me to let go!
She nods to the screen before her with Aerynn’s promo on it.
Bethany Kenyon: Right there in that warehouse with those dolls, you screamed at me to stop trying and I kept calling and texting anyway. I asked you to tell me where you were and there were times I met up with you at the shows and asked how you were and if you needed anything and you blew me off! I offered you anything you wanted, I offered anything you needed, I even offered you a place to live when Logan told you to hit the bricks! Nobody else bothered but I did and even after everyone including YOU told me to stop, I kept trying to get a hold of you, to let you know you weren’t out in the storm alone!
Gripping her sheets tightly, Bethany tries not to let the tears flow.
Bethany Kenyon: I tried no matter how much you declared me, my sister and everyone I love the unforgiven! Jeszika goes out to her cabin to get drunk and think about killing herself? I tried to call YOU and texted YOU on the way out to help her. Ashley’s got a head injury? I called and texted YOU on the way to the hospital to see to her. Carrie gets attacked and needs time away from me…
She pauses, nodding in shame.
Bethany Kenyon: I texted and called YOU on my way over to talk to her...
She sniffs, biting her bottom lip even as it starts to quiver.
Bethany Kenyon: And now… you attack her and shoot up Billy…
Tears start streaming down her face.
Bethany Kenyon: I texted and tried to call YOU to hear you out on my way to the hospital to see to her.
As her bottom lip shivers, she wipes tears away from her eyes, looking down at the sheets instead of the camera.
Bethany Kenyon: You wanted to hurt me because I wouldn’t stop trying to be your friend?
She shrugs sadly before looking back up into the camera.
Bethany Kenyon: You win, you hurt me, she’s gone again.
She nods guiltily.
Bethany Kenyon: You dubbed us all the ones responsible for making you the monster, you dubbed us all wrong for it and you screamed at me to stop…
She looks down again before looking back up defiantly.
Bethany Kenyon: Fuck you, Aerynn, I’ll never stop trying to help you even if I have to use my fists to beat some sense into you! Scream at me all you want, call me whatever you want, try and drive them all away from me, I won’t stop and you can’t make me!
As the tears start up in force again, Bethany shakes her head.
Bethany Kenyon: I may be the unforgiven, but I’ll never stop being your friend...
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Driving down the street, Bethany Kenyon guides her ancient ass Ford Explorer around a corner and to a familiar house she’s been to a million times before. She pulls up into the parking lot next to the black and yellow Camaro signifying the owner is home. Bethany turns her vehicle off and takes a deep breath. She opens the car door and slips out, closing it behind her. She walks up to the front door and rings the bell. Within a few seconds, the door opens to reveal the home’s owner, Bethany’s friend and stablemate, the UWA World Heavyweight Champion, Jeszika Gautier.
Jeszika Gautier: Hey B, how’s things?
Bethany shrugs.
Bethany Kenyon: Shouldn’t I be asking you that?
Jeszika shrugs as they both walk into the living room.
Jeszika Gautier: Goes both ways.
Bethany nods.
Bethany Kenyon: I’m…
She pauses and bites her lip.
Bethany Kenyon: Yeah… you?
Jeszika shrugs.
Jeszika Gautier: Getting there... less angry now, so that’s something. And I'm not crying all the time either... I'm just... meh…
Bethany nods.
Bethany Kenyon: So… what are we gonna do?
Jeszika Gautier: Well I'm getting help already. Had my second session yesterday and this morning, I went and spoke to Oliver.
Bethany nods.
Bethany Kenyon: Is that why this needed to be so late in the day…
Jeszika Gautier: Yeah, I wasn’t sure how long I'd be there but it went well. He's letting me be at the next show, not fighting, but I'm going to be there, watching. I think he's testing me to see how I'll react. If I'll be able to keep my cool and what not.
Bethany nods, exhaling forcefully as she sits down on the couch.
Bethany Kenyon: Ash’ll be happy to hear it assuming she hasn’t had another headache. She’s wanted to go out so badly…
As she trails off, a sad frown falls over her face.
Jeszika Gautier: How’s Ash doing? I'm sorry I haven’t been there for her more.
Bethany manages a smile.
Bethany Kenyon: She’s doing better, the concussion… she seems to be getting passed that.
Jeszika Gautier: That’s good.
Jeszika frowns.
Jeszika Gautier: Is everything ok, B?
Bethany shrugs.
Bethany Kenyon: She’s wanted to go out and I’ve…
She nods acknowledgingly.
Bethany Kenyon: I’ve been avoiding going to Prey.
Jeszika Gautier: Why? Are things not good between you and Carrie?
Bethany shakes her head.
Bethany Kenyon: No… I…
Swallowing hard, Bethany sits forward.
Bethany Kenyon: I don’t wanna impose on you, Jezzy. You’ve got enough to worry about without worrying about me too.
Jeszika Gautier: It’s fine B, you can talk to me, what’s wrong?
Her eyes moisten as she looks at Jeszika.
Bethany Kenyon: I haven’t gone to Prey because I know…
Jeszika Gautier: You think Carrie doesn’t want you there?
Bethany shrugs.
Bethany Kenyon: She was just different after what Aerynn did. I haven’t gone because I know, I know what she’s gonna say and I’m not ready to hear it yet and I know…
She bites her lip again as the tears start flowing.
Bethany Kenyon: I know if I hear that now, I’ll go find a bottle and more of everything than I’ve ever done before and I’ll go down a rabbit hole I’ll never come out of…
Jeszika Gautier: Oh, B…
She reaches out and hugs her friend.
Jeszika Gautier: Sounds like you might need some of Reva's special tea as well. Life really gone and shat all over us. All of us, we all need help, B, even if we don't want to admit it.
Bethany Kenyon: I’ve avoided going anywhere near that stuff because I’m scared if I go there, I’ll become Billy.
Jeszika Gautier: That’s why we need help, B. You should come see Reva with me, B. She can help…
Bethany Kenyon: I'm also scared of what Ashley will do if I tell her I don't wanna party anymore.
Jeszika Gautier: I'm sure she'll understand why, B. She loves you and I'm sure she'll support your decision no matter what.
Bethany Kenyon: Yeah, but she's always loved it more than us, Jezzy. I mean, Nik's practically gone straight edge, I can take it or leave it and I've felt like leaving it a lot more lately... you... sound like you don't want it so much anymore either but Ash? She practically begs us to go out almost every day…
Jeszika Gautier: Maybe she needs something else to help her feel better. Maybe she drinks make herself feel better…
Bethany nods sadly.
Bethany Kenyon: I think Billy's on something again too after Aerynn shot him up.
Jeszika Gautier: Just what we need…
Bethany nods.
Bethany Kenyon: I'm not sure what and I know Ash hasn't been doing it with him because the concussion has kept her home for the most part but... if she feels like we've abandoned her on that, she might…
Jeszika Gautier: We can't keep living like this, B. We have to do something…
Bethany Kenyon: Can I ask you something, Jezzy?
Jeszika Gautier: Anything, B.
Bethany sucks in a deep breath.
Bethany Kenyon: Do you see yourself as an addict?
Jeszika nods.
Jeszika Gautier: Yes.
Bethany Kenyon: What about me?
Jeszika nods.
Jeszika Gautier: We all are... or were at one point.
Nodding, Bethany swallows hard.
Bethany Kenyon: Is that what I did wrong?
Jeszika Gautier: No, B, you did nothing wrong... I did…
Bethany Kenyon: With Carrie…
Jeszika Gautier: She would have never got dragged into this, if it wasn’t for me... none of you would…
Bethany looks at Jeszika, tears streaming down her face.
Bethany Kenyon: Why doesn’t she want me anymore, Jezzy?
Jeszika Gautier: Did she say that to you? Or are you just worried that's how she feels?
Bethany shakes her head.
Bethany Kenyon: She hasn't said it yet…
Jeszika Gautier: Then you have nothing to worry about yet. Go talk to her, B. There's no point stressing over what ifs and maybes. She might be fine. You never know…
Bethany nods.
Bethany Kenyon: I don't know what I'll do if she does say that.
Jeszika Gautier: Whatever happens, I'll do whatever it takes to help you through it.
Bethany Kenyon: I just don’t want her to hate me…
Jeszika Gautier: Then talk to her, B... it's the best thing you can do right now…
Bethany nods and hugs Jeszika back.
Bethany Kenyon: I’m sorry I didn’t see how bad you were hurting, Jezzy.
Jeszika Gautier: Even I didn't, B... it's ok... I'm getting help now. That's all that matters.
Bethany Kenyon: If there’s anything I can do to help you, name it.
Jeszika Gautier: Same goes for you, B.
November 21, 2014
Bethany Kenyon walks across Prey and strides towards the door of the back room she knows so well. She slowly comes up to the door and raises a hand but stops short of actually knocking. Her hand hovers an inch above the door as she holds her breath, arguing with herself about whether she’s really ready for this conversation. Finally remembering to breathe, Bethany nods, closing her eyes. Her hand finally makes contact with the door and it opens. Carrie Winter stands there looking as apprehensive as Bethany does. The two just stare at each other for a second, neither really wanting to go down the road they know they’re already on.
Bethany Kenyon: Hi.
Carrie nods slowly, knowing how this is probably gonna go.
Carrie Winter: Hi.
Bethany steps back and Carrie moves to let her enter fully. As Bethany moves inside the room ever so slightly, Carrie closes the door but remains close to it, both women knowing they’ll probably need it sooner rather than later.
Bethany Kenyon: How are you?
Carrie swallows hard.
Carrie Winter: I've been better.
Bethany nods sadly as she leans against the door.
Bethany Kenyon: So...
Carrie nods and they both close their eyes, afraid to go on and even more afraid to stop now and leave it where they are.
Carrie Winter: I don't know where to start. You're beautiful and you're...
She shakes her head, opening her eyes just as Bethany opens hers.
Carrie Winter: I don't know what to do...
Bethany looks into Carrie’s face, apprehension washing over both of them in a giant tidal wave of horror.
Bethany Kenyon: With what?
Carrie shakes her head as they both start towards the rain.
Carrie Winter: Everything.
Desperate, Bethany takes a step.
Bethany Kenyon: Care...
Carrie raises a hand to stop her.
Carrie Winter: Don't...
Bethany stops right there and Carrie sucks in whatever air she can find to keep her nerve.
Carrie Winter: I know you mean well and you want make it all ok... but you can't. You can't make it all alright for me, for that guy who came to see me, for Jeszika, Ashley or that Irish cunt! I'm sorry, Bethany... but you can't have us all.
Bethany’s eyes go wide.
Bethany Kenyon: I...
Carrie just shakes her head sadly.
Carrie Winter: I can't look at you without seeing...
She pauses.
Carrie Winter: She beat me, Bethy... she beat me up bad and I know you tried to call her again. I also know you still look at...
She trails off again.
Carrie Winter: I know you want to love me, that you want to be there for me but you can't tell me you'd pick me over everyone else. And I can't... keep coming in last place...
Tears start rolling down Bethany’s face.
Bethany Kenyon: But you don't!
Carrie nods.
Carrie Winter: Yes I do, Bethy... every time... you try to help everybody and so help nobody and now...
She shakes her head again.
Carrie Winter: I love you Bethy but this isn't working. This... I'm sorry... I'm just... not working, I'm sorry. Maybe we can still be friends but... that's all we've really been anyway, friends with benefits and I need more than that. I deserve more and so do you.
Carrie nods, fighting back tears.
Carrie Winter: I'm sorry...
Inside the main area of Prey, Ashley Kenyon and Nikki Peltier sit at a far table just waiting to see what all might happen tonight. As Ashley leans back to search for Billy in the crowd, Nikki glances over and sees Bethany hurrying towards the front door.
Nikki Peltier: Oh no…
Ashley manages to look up.
Ashley Kenyon: What?
Nikki nods to the door as she pulls her phone from her pocket.
Bethany Kenyon: Bethy just went running out of here and Carrie isn’t coming out of her room…
Ashley looks over in that direction alarm.
Ashley Kenyon: They just…
Nikki nods as the phone rings.
Nikki Peltier: Jezzy?
Jeszika Gautier: Hello?
Nikki Peltier: Jezzy, are you home? I'm at Prey with Ash waiting for Billy to come back from the bathroom. Bethy just left... in a hurry…
Jeszika Gautier: Oh no... she talked to Carrie didn't she?
Nikki Peltier: Yeah and Carrie hasn't come out of her room.
Jeszika Gautier: Shit... ok, I'll hightail it and get to her place... here's hoping I can stop her before she does something she regrets.
Nikki Peltier: Ok, we’ll be coming too as soon as we can.
Fifteen minutes later, Jeszika pulls up to Bethany’s home and parks her Camaro next to Bethany’s old Ford Explorer. She pops out of her car and hurries up to the front door. Before she can knock, the door falls open.
Jeszika Gautier: B, are you in here?
She says this as she gingerly pushes the door the rest of the way open.
Bethany Kenyon: Bedroom.
Jeszika rushes down the hall following the voices instructions. As she comes around the corner, she finds Bethany on her knees in front of the nightstand next to the bed.
Bethany Kenyon: Hi…
As Jeszika moves in closer she can see in Bethany’s shaking hands is a box, a box Jezzy knows well.
Bethany’s gun...
Jeszika's eyes go wide and her voice is shakey when she speaks.
Jeszika Gautier: B... You don't have to do this…
With her voice shaking, Bethany manages a small nod.
Bethany Kenyon: Yes... yes, I do…
Jeszika Gautier: B, please... we love you... please... don't....
Jeszika looks horrified, frozen on the spot, not sure what to do. Bethany stands up and sets the box down on her bed.
Bethany Kenyon: Are Nik and Ash coming?
Jeszika frowns.
Jeszika Gautier: Yes, of course, they'll be here soon…
Bethany manages a nod, still making no eye contact.
Bethany Kenyon: Ok... do you think Nikki will take this with her for me? I…
Her teeth begin to chatter as the shaking starts to become too much to stave off.
Bethany Kenyon: I don't want... it... near…
Jeszika finally moves forward, taking the woman into her arms.
Jeszika Gautier: I'm sure she would, anything to help a sister, B.
Bethany manages a nod, still not letting herself look Jeszika in the eye.
Bethany Kenyon: Can we go... dump out all the liquor here? I…
Unable to keep going, Bethany looks Jeszika in the eyes and can't hold it back any longer. Tears stream down her face as a high, mournful wail escapes her lips. Jeszika holds her tight, shushing her gently like a child.
Jeszika Gautier: Of course we can, B... we'll get rid of it all…
Bethany nods, sobbing.
Bethany Kenyon: Why don’t she want me, Jezzy?
Jeszika Gautier: I don't know, B... I wish I could answer that, but I can't…
Just as she starts crying harder again, Nikki's voice drifts in from the front door.
Nikki Peltier: Bethy? Jezzy?
Jeszika Gautier: We're in the bedroom.
Seconds later, Nikki and Ashley come into the room with Billy right behind them.
Nikki Peltier: Is she?
Jeszika Gautier: She'll be ok. She wants you to take her gun and hide it and all alcohol and drugs in the house, we need gone.
Nikki nods.
Nikki Peltier: Done.
Ashley nods to her boyfriend and points him to the kitchen.
Ashley Kenyon: Come on, we'll go empty the liquor cabinet. If she has anything else, it'll be in there too.
As Ashley and Billy hurry off, Nikki steps passed them and flips the box open.
Nikki Peltier: Is this the only piece you have in the house?
Bethany nods.
Bethany Kenyon: Yes.
Nikki nods, flips the box closed and picks it up.
Nikki Peltier: It'll be out of your house presently.
Jeszika Gautier: Thank you Nikki…
She looks down at Bethany.
Jeszika Gautier: It'll be ok, B... you can make it through this.
Bethany starts to nod but suddenly finds she can’t stand up anymore. She sits down on the bed, as Nikki quickly disappears with the box.
Bethany Kenyon: Do you think somebody could stay over the next couple of days?
Jeszika Gautier: I will, B, anything for you.
Bethany nods gratefully.
Bethany Kenyon: Thank you, Jezzy... I'm…
She bites her lip trying not to just burst into tears again.
Bethany Kenyon: I'm sorry... I didn't mean to scare…
Jeszika Gautier: It’s ok, B... I'm just glad you're ok. I know you probably feel like you can't make it through this right now, but you will, in time.
Bethany nods, the tears coming back all over again. Nikki, Ashley and Billy come back into the room as Jeszika sits down and lets Bethany cry on her shoulder. Nikki and Ashley waste no time in climbing onto the bed and latching on to their two friends and sisters while Billy stands awkwardly by the door.
Bethany Kenyon: Thank you… I love you guys…
Jeszika Gautier: Love you too, B.
Several hours later, everyone else is asleep while Bethany stares at her laptop from her bed. Tears stream down her face as she sits there trying to compose herself.
Bethany Kenyon: Come on, you can do this…
She wipes away the tears and swallows hard before turning on the camera.
Bethany Kenyon: So…
She pauses, taking in a deep breath.
Bethany Kenyon: Ashley keeps asking why even though Aerynn’s answered that a couple of times and no matter how much or how little sense anyone thinks it makes, it’s the one we’re getting. Aerynn feels abandoned because she says nobody tried to keep her from going over the edge…
She pauses, shaking her head sadly.
Bethany Kenyon: You’re wrong, Aerynn.
Finally looking up, Bethany nods to the camera.
Bethany Kenyon: I tried! When everyone else told me not to bother anymore, I kept going. You’re right that everyone else eventually labeled you a lost cause and they all took their turns saying, “Bethy, let her go, you’re just going to get hurt. Bethy, stop trying, you can’t save her. Bethy, give it up, she’s jumped and doesn’t want your help!”
Tears start to well up in her eyes again.
Bethany Kenyon: I tried and you told me to let go!
She nods to the screen before her with Aerynn’s promo on it.
Bethany Kenyon: Right there in that warehouse with those dolls, you screamed at me to stop trying and I kept calling and texting anyway. I asked you to tell me where you were and there were times I met up with you at the shows and asked how you were and if you needed anything and you blew me off! I offered you anything you wanted, I offered anything you needed, I even offered you a place to live when Logan told you to hit the bricks! Nobody else bothered but I did and even after everyone including YOU told me to stop, I kept trying to get a hold of you, to let you know you weren’t out in the storm alone!
Gripping her sheets tightly, Bethany tries not to let the tears flow.
Bethany Kenyon: I tried no matter how much you declared me, my sister and everyone I love the unforgiven! Jeszika goes out to her cabin to get drunk and think about killing herself? I tried to call YOU and texted YOU on the way out to help her. Ashley’s got a head injury? I called and texted YOU on the way to the hospital to see to her. Carrie gets attacked and needs time away from me…
She pauses, nodding in shame.
Bethany Kenyon: I texted and called YOU on my way over to talk to her...
She sniffs, biting her bottom lip even as it starts to quiver.
Bethany Kenyon: And now… you attack her and shoot up Billy…
Tears start streaming down her face.
Bethany Kenyon: I texted and tried to call YOU to hear you out on my way to the hospital to see to her.
As her bottom lip shivers, she wipes tears away from her eyes, looking down at the sheets instead of the camera.
Bethany Kenyon: You wanted to hurt me because I wouldn’t stop trying to be your friend?
She shrugs sadly before looking back up into the camera.
Bethany Kenyon: You win, you hurt me, she’s gone again.
She nods guiltily.
Bethany Kenyon: You dubbed us all the ones responsible for making you the monster, you dubbed us all wrong for it and you screamed at me to stop…
She looks down again before looking back up defiantly.
Bethany Kenyon: Fuck you, Aerynn, I’ll never stop trying to help you even if I have to use my fists to beat some sense into you! Scream at me all you want, call me whatever you want, try and drive them all away from me, I won’t stop and you can’t make me!
As the tears start up in force again, Bethany shakes her head.
Bethany Kenyon: I may be the unforgiven, but I’ll never stop being your friend...
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