Post by fraserfreeman on Jun 10, 2014 6:53:35 GMT -6
Disclaimer: Contains scenes of violence and offensive language
Fraser freeman is sat in his motel room in St George Utah, it is two hours since Monday Night Mayhem went off air, this is your run of the mill beaten up old motel, it clearly hasn’t been decorated properly since the mid 1980s and desperately needs an upgrade. Freeman is sat in the bed a stack of unopened beer cans and packets of cigarettes beside him. It is clear his plan is to get obliterated and forget the night, to forget the assault he endured at the hands of Vince Jones, to forget that none of his stable mates were there to have his back. Suddenly the sound of a key going into the door is heard and the door swings open. In walks Freeman’s now girlfriend Jade, he has not seen Jade since the morning, she looks at freeman who is sat on the bed in a white tank top and blue jeans. She sees the stitches in his eyebrow and the bruises forming on his arms and face from the assault from Vince and comes rushing over sitting down next to him looking concerned.
Jade: Jesus Frase what the hell happened?
Freeman shakes his head from side to side, with a rather pissed off look on his face, anger etched on his face.
Freeman: I got fucking jumped and where the fuck where you!
Jade takes a back step a bit scared at the angry tone in his voice and a bit upset at his attitude.
Jade: What! I didn’t know you know ide have been.....
Freeman: No I don’t know you’d have been there, because you FUCKING wernt! You were too busy being Barons little lap dog to even FUCKING notice, hell you mean to tell me you were never near a monitor the whole night! You mean to tell me you didn’t hear all the commotion going on, yeah fuck that you just didn’t FUCKING care did you!
Freeman bolts upright, anger seething through him, at this moment in time it really doesn’t matter if Jade didn’t know all that matters was that she wasn’t there for him, the one person he expected to be there wasn’t and it hurt. Together with the assault that Vince put on him, the monster inside has awoken and its fucking angry VERY angry. Jade places her hands on Freeman's waist and looks up into his eyes.
Jade: Frase stop this please, I didn’t know, you really think I wouldn’t have been there by your side if I did! Don’t do this don’t let the monster take cont....
Freeman: don’t let it take control? You think this is the monster you know fuck all, I will show you the fucking monster I will show EVERYONE the fucking monster.
Jade: Please don’t!
Freeman turns and picks up the lamp on the bedside table and pulls hard yanking the cable out of the wall, he turns and throws in full force at the wall smashing it into thousands of pieces.
Freeman: Now i'm going to get mother fucking drunk and you better fucking not be here when I come back!
Freeman picks up his hooded top off the floor and puts it on before angrily stomping towards the door opening it quickly and slamming it behind him, leaving Jade to collapse down onto the bed crying. He pulls his hood up and walks towards the motel bar.
***Half an hour later***
Fraser Freeman is now sat at the motel bar clutching a bottle of Whiskey which he purchased in full from the bar. It is a beaten down bar much like the hotel itself, old worn fixtures and fittings and it has definitely seen better days. Freeman pours himself a glass of whiskey and knocks it back quickly. Freeman has calmed down somewhat, alcohol can have that initial effect but it sure as hell wont take a great deal to flip the switch once more. The bell above the door rings and Into the bar walks Skylar Hansen, she notices Freeman sat at the bar all on his lonesome and walks over taking the stool next to him. Skylar takes a seat next to him, ordering a Black Russian. She doesn’t say a word till her drink had arrived and she takes a sip, before looking over at him.
Skylar: Bad night huh, Frase?
Freeman says nothing just fills his glass with what looks like a triple shot then knocks it back in one gulp.
Freeman: Understatement of the century young sky, understatement of the century
Skylar looks at him, sympathy in her eyes
Skylar: Whats wrong Frase?
Freeman takes a deep breath before exhaling slowly turning into a sigh.
Freeman: I have spent so much time protecting others it appears I forgot to look out for number 1
Freeman turns taking down the hood of his hooded jacket revealing fresh stitches on his eyebrow and a black eye starting to form from his run in with Vince.
Freeman: I don’t know whats worse the fact I let my guard down or the fact the man I call my tag partner was no where to be seen when I needed him most
Freeman pours himself a single shot and knocks it back quick.
Skylar: They do say its the ones closest to you that turn on you the worst. But I don't think Baron meant to not be there Frase...
Freeman: Yeah well don’t worry I will be extra vigilant from now on, I just hope Vince Jones knows what he is unleashing, because as of this moment I will not rest till he feels the full force of the monster that is eating away at me on the inside! Thats if he lives long enough to feel the true extent of it!
The anger and violent intent can be felt lingering in the air as Freeman is raging! He composes himself not wanting to scare young Skylar
Freeman: Sorry Sky I may have had one too many to drink im finding this side of me hard to control at the moment
Skylar nods, not knowing what to think.
Skylar: OK.
She takes another sip of her own drink
Skylar: I need to talk to you about something... I'm guessing now isn’t a good time though
Freeman smirks at Skylar and she shoots a surprised look at him a look that says are you finding something funny.
Freeman: Let me guess you wish to speak to me about your reconciliation with Craven or should I call him Rick or perhaps Dub or maybes even Warrick?
Skylar eyes go wide
Skylar: You already know? How?
Freeman laughs a bit before responding the chuckle still slightly in his voice for the first few words
Freeman: Oh young Sky I admire your gullableness. When it comes to people I am keeping an eye out for there is nothing that I do not know. I figured out weeks ago that Rick was not a threat, hell I saw your farther's Death certificate a while back and put 2 and 2 together, I figured out Craven was not a threat. Hell why do you think I gave you that whole speech about talking to him!
Skylar: I...
She cocks her head
Skylar: Why didn’t you just tell me?
Freeman: because I figured it would be best to let it come from Craven, how else do you think he got that close! it is cute that he thinks he distracted me though
Freeman laughs a bit at that before pouring himself another drink and begins staring into the glass swirling it around in the glass.
She looks a little sheepish and shrugs
Skylar: So... I guess that’s that then...
Freeman downs his drink before looking at her, he sees some kind of unease in her, senses that the realisation that Freeman knows way more than she figured he would freaks her out a little bit.
Freeman: Sky, please don’t let this shite affect our relationship in anyway. I think it is probably best that I let you know now anything I say and or do in relation to you I do with your best interests at heart. Yes I know things you would probably prefer I didn’t but to keep my girls safe I have to do a little digging, if there’s any trace of information out there I will find it and I will use it to protect my girls, its what I do!
Skylar: Its a smart thing to do. Then you have all the information you need, you know if we're a safe investment and if there's anything we need protecting from that maybe we're too scared to say.
Freeman: Your a smart girl young Sky. Is there anything at all I can help you with? anything you need to talk about, I mean shit I cant say right now this very moment my advice will be anything more than anger fuelled drivel but hey I can give it a shot!
She blushes a little suddenly, yeah the advice she needed wasn’t any she thought he could give.
Skylar: Probably not to be honest. Unless you can tell me weither to follow my heart or not. I mean, Rick is back now, but I'm.... I mean I... I wanna be back with him, but... Its been 8 years since I was with him... its... weird to be honest. I haven’t had a single relationship in that time... He's my one and only...
she looks up at him
Skylar: What should I do?
Freeman: Let me tell you Sky just go for it go with your heart, yeah I might sound like a slushy idiot but hey follow it. I know from experience not following it is only going to cause you pain. Now I cant say it will be easy hell sometimes you will probably hate him
Freeman sighs thinking of the earlier argument he had with Jade and wishes he could take back the display of anger he let loose at her earlier.
But really all that aside, all the shit aside, if you really love someone then don’t push them away.
Skylar nods
Skylar: OK... I'll follow my heart.
She pauses
Skylar: I guess you know about Sin and Rocket too...
Freeman: Some things I wish I didn’t know but hey in my line of business you find out shit you’d rather not!
Skylar: Bet Barons happy about it... not
Freeman: Yeah well, guess there goes the cash cow he had in mind!
Skylar: I guess so
She laughs a little.
Freeman: Right these booze is gettin to me bladder so excuse me whilst i use the mens room.
As freeman goes to the toilet Sky is approached by this goofy looking guy in a Hawaiian shirt and khaki pants and open toe sandals.
Not so smooth guy: Hey toots wanna get funky with my inner monkey?
Skylar gives him a droll stare
Skylar: Yeah buddy.... Not interested, go take a hike.
Not so smooth guy: Awww come on now toots, you know you really wanna get up close and personal to this!
The guy grabs the collar of his hideous shirt and pulls it a few times before leaning in towards Skylar and his stinky garlic breath goes in her face.
A disgusted look on her face Skylar shoves him away, hard and growls at him.
Skylar: Not tonight buddy
Meanwhile Freeman is on his way back from the bathroom when he catches a glimpse of what is going on at the bar.
The guy grabs a hold of Skylar's arm and she begins pulling against it trying to wriggle free.
Freeman begins sprinting towards the bar and strikes the man in the face with a hard elbow to the face breaking the guys nose and causing him to fall back to the floor.
Freeman mounts the man and starts to punch him viciously blow after blow after blow. Freeman gets to his feet and it can be seen he is seething, taken over with rage almost foaming at the mouth, he looks at the stool and picks it up and turns back to the man, however Skylar jumps in front of him and begins pleading with him.
Skylar: Fraser stop! you're gonna kill him, don't do this! Don't be like this!
Freeman is still just glaring at the man stool hoisted above his head with one hand, not breaking eye contact with the man. He is so engulfed in rage I don’t think he even heard what Skylar said, he is lost the monster has taken over and what the monster wishes to do the monster does!
He pushes sky out of the way with his free arm sending her crashing down to the floor and swings the stool down on top of the man in one fluid motion. He looks down at the bloody mess of a man before his feet and smirks an evil smirk a little the rage still in him. He picks up the bottle of Whiskey off the bar and begins to glug away at it finishing every last drop before slamming the empty bottle down on the bar. Skylar looks up at the man that stands before her a very different Fraser Freeman to the one she has known in complete shock as Freeman turns and walks towards the exit of the bar in his own little world.
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Tuesday 3rd June 2014
Freeman's hotel room
St George, Utah
The scene opens up in Fraser Freeman’s hotel room, he is begining to stir from his slumber wriggling around the bed in his Underpants. He is surrounded by empty cigarette packets and beer cans and the smashed lamp from the previous night is scattered all over the floor. He reaches over to the bedside table and grabs his cellphone, he has 3 new messages he unlocks the phone and opens the first message it is from Jade.
Freeman sighs pulling a upset and remorseful face, he never means to scare or hurt Jade and he knows that she would have been there if she had know. He hates that this other side of him is seemingly ruining the one good thing he has going. He scrolls to the next message which is from Skylar.
Freeman sighs to himself, at this point in time he wishes he was one of those people who get drunk and wake up the next morning with no memory of the night before, he wishes he couldn’t remember his monstrous side taking control and reeking havoc. Unfortunately for him he never forgets! He remembers every second and it makes him feel sick. He remembers treating his beloved Jade like shit, he remembers scaring the living daylights out of young Sky and he remembers beating some poor innocent bystander to within an inch of his life and he is purely disgusted with himself.
He flicks to the final message on his phone this one is from Samuel Johnson
He leans over and places his cellphone down on the bedside table and swings round climbing out of bed. He walks through to the adjoining en-suite bathroom and stands in front of the mirror and goes into deep thought as he looks in the mirror.
What have I become? I am spiralling out of control! I barely even recognise the man I see before me in the mirror, the deep set anger in my eyes, the lust for causing mayhem and chaos this is not me! The monster in me seems to be taking over and I must continue to work to control it!
Freeman turns the tap on and splashes water over his face, before reaching to the side and drying his face with a towel. He turns and walks back into the bedroom and walks over to the bed, the bed is one of them raised ones you can store things under. He pulls out his travel back and unzips it, from the back he pulls out a clean t-shirt and a pair of blue jeans and pulls them on. He goes back into the bag and pulls out a notebook and a pen that has journal written on it, he sits down on the edge of the bed and pulls open the journal and begins to write.
Freeman closes the journal and places it and the pen back in the bag as the scene fades to black.
Fraser freeman is sat in his motel room in St George Utah, it is two hours since Monday Night Mayhem went off air, this is your run of the mill beaten up old motel, it clearly hasn’t been decorated properly since the mid 1980s and desperately needs an upgrade. Freeman is sat in the bed a stack of unopened beer cans and packets of cigarettes beside him. It is clear his plan is to get obliterated and forget the night, to forget the assault he endured at the hands of Vince Jones, to forget that none of his stable mates were there to have his back. Suddenly the sound of a key going into the door is heard and the door swings open. In walks Freeman’s now girlfriend Jade, he has not seen Jade since the morning, she looks at freeman who is sat on the bed in a white tank top and blue jeans. She sees the stitches in his eyebrow and the bruises forming on his arms and face from the assault from Vince and comes rushing over sitting down next to him looking concerned.
Jade: Jesus Frase what the hell happened?
Freeman shakes his head from side to side, with a rather pissed off look on his face, anger etched on his face.
Freeman: I got fucking jumped and where the fuck where you!
Jade takes a back step a bit scared at the angry tone in his voice and a bit upset at his attitude.
Jade: What! I didn’t know you know ide have been.....
Freeman: No I don’t know you’d have been there, because you FUCKING wernt! You were too busy being Barons little lap dog to even FUCKING notice, hell you mean to tell me you were never near a monitor the whole night! You mean to tell me you didn’t hear all the commotion going on, yeah fuck that you just didn’t FUCKING care did you!
Freeman bolts upright, anger seething through him, at this moment in time it really doesn’t matter if Jade didn’t know all that matters was that she wasn’t there for him, the one person he expected to be there wasn’t and it hurt. Together with the assault that Vince put on him, the monster inside has awoken and its fucking angry VERY angry. Jade places her hands on Freeman's waist and looks up into his eyes.
Jade: Frase stop this please, I didn’t know, you really think I wouldn’t have been there by your side if I did! Don’t do this don’t let the monster take cont....
Freeman: don’t let it take control? You think this is the monster you know fuck all, I will show you the fucking monster I will show EVERYONE the fucking monster.
Jade: Please don’t!
Freeman turns and picks up the lamp on the bedside table and pulls hard yanking the cable out of the wall, he turns and throws in full force at the wall smashing it into thousands of pieces.
Freeman: Now i'm going to get mother fucking drunk and you better fucking not be here when I come back!
Freeman picks up his hooded top off the floor and puts it on before angrily stomping towards the door opening it quickly and slamming it behind him, leaving Jade to collapse down onto the bed crying. He pulls his hood up and walks towards the motel bar.
***Half an hour later***
Fraser Freeman is now sat at the motel bar clutching a bottle of Whiskey which he purchased in full from the bar. It is a beaten down bar much like the hotel itself, old worn fixtures and fittings and it has definitely seen better days. Freeman pours himself a glass of whiskey and knocks it back quickly. Freeman has calmed down somewhat, alcohol can have that initial effect but it sure as hell wont take a great deal to flip the switch once more. The bell above the door rings and Into the bar walks Skylar Hansen, she notices Freeman sat at the bar all on his lonesome and walks over taking the stool next to him. Skylar takes a seat next to him, ordering a Black Russian. She doesn’t say a word till her drink had arrived and she takes a sip, before looking over at him.
Skylar: Bad night huh, Frase?
Freeman says nothing just fills his glass with what looks like a triple shot then knocks it back in one gulp.
Freeman: Understatement of the century young sky, understatement of the century
Skylar looks at him, sympathy in her eyes
Skylar: Whats wrong Frase?
Freeman takes a deep breath before exhaling slowly turning into a sigh.
Freeman: I have spent so much time protecting others it appears I forgot to look out for number 1
Freeman turns taking down the hood of his hooded jacket revealing fresh stitches on his eyebrow and a black eye starting to form from his run in with Vince.
Freeman: I don’t know whats worse the fact I let my guard down or the fact the man I call my tag partner was no where to be seen when I needed him most
Freeman pours himself a single shot and knocks it back quick.
Skylar: They do say its the ones closest to you that turn on you the worst. But I don't think Baron meant to not be there Frase...
Freeman: Yeah well don’t worry I will be extra vigilant from now on, I just hope Vince Jones knows what he is unleashing, because as of this moment I will not rest till he feels the full force of the monster that is eating away at me on the inside! Thats if he lives long enough to feel the true extent of it!
The anger and violent intent can be felt lingering in the air as Freeman is raging! He composes himself not wanting to scare young Skylar
Freeman: Sorry Sky I may have had one too many to drink im finding this side of me hard to control at the moment
Skylar nods, not knowing what to think.
Skylar: OK.
She takes another sip of her own drink
Skylar: I need to talk to you about something... I'm guessing now isn’t a good time though
Freeman smirks at Skylar and she shoots a surprised look at him a look that says are you finding something funny.
Freeman: Let me guess you wish to speak to me about your reconciliation with Craven or should I call him Rick or perhaps Dub or maybes even Warrick?
Skylar eyes go wide
Skylar: You already know? How?
Freeman laughs a bit before responding the chuckle still slightly in his voice for the first few words
Freeman: Oh young Sky I admire your gullableness. When it comes to people I am keeping an eye out for there is nothing that I do not know. I figured out weeks ago that Rick was not a threat, hell I saw your farther's Death certificate a while back and put 2 and 2 together, I figured out Craven was not a threat. Hell why do you think I gave you that whole speech about talking to him!
Skylar: I...
She cocks her head
Skylar: Why didn’t you just tell me?
Freeman: because I figured it would be best to let it come from Craven, how else do you think he got that close! it is cute that he thinks he distracted me though
Freeman laughs a bit at that before pouring himself another drink and begins staring into the glass swirling it around in the glass.
She looks a little sheepish and shrugs
Skylar: So... I guess that’s that then...
Freeman downs his drink before looking at her, he sees some kind of unease in her, senses that the realisation that Freeman knows way more than she figured he would freaks her out a little bit.
Freeman: Sky, please don’t let this shite affect our relationship in anyway. I think it is probably best that I let you know now anything I say and or do in relation to you I do with your best interests at heart. Yes I know things you would probably prefer I didn’t but to keep my girls safe I have to do a little digging, if there’s any trace of information out there I will find it and I will use it to protect my girls, its what I do!
Skylar: Its a smart thing to do. Then you have all the information you need, you know if we're a safe investment and if there's anything we need protecting from that maybe we're too scared to say.
Freeman: Your a smart girl young Sky. Is there anything at all I can help you with? anything you need to talk about, I mean shit I cant say right now this very moment my advice will be anything more than anger fuelled drivel but hey I can give it a shot!
She blushes a little suddenly, yeah the advice she needed wasn’t any she thought he could give.
Skylar: Probably not to be honest. Unless you can tell me weither to follow my heart or not. I mean, Rick is back now, but I'm.... I mean I... I wanna be back with him, but... Its been 8 years since I was with him... its... weird to be honest. I haven’t had a single relationship in that time... He's my one and only...
she looks up at him
Skylar: What should I do?
Freeman: Let me tell you Sky just go for it go with your heart, yeah I might sound like a slushy idiot but hey follow it. I know from experience not following it is only going to cause you pain. Now I cant say it will be easy hell sometimes you will probably hate him
Freeman sighs thinking of the earlier argument he had with Jade and wishes he could take back the display of anger he let loose at her earlier.
But really all that aside, all the shit aside, if you really love someone then don’t push them away.
Skylar nods
Skylar: OK... I'll follow my heart.
She pauses
Skylar: I guess you know about Sin and Rocket too...
Freeman: Some things I wish I didn’t know but hey in my line of business you find out shit you’d rather not!
Skylar: Bet Barons happy about it... not
Freeman: Yeah well, guess there goes the cash cow he had in mind!
Skylar: I guess so
She laughs a little.
Freeman: Right these booze is gettin to me bladder so excuse me whilst i use the mens room.
As freeman goes to the toilet Sky is approached by this goofy looking guy in a Hawaiian shirt and khaki pants and open toe sandals.
Not so smooth guy: Hey toots wanna get funky with my inner monkey?
Skylar gives him a droll stare
Skylar: Yeah buddy.... Not interested, go take a hike.
Not so smooth guy: Awww come on now toots, you know you really wanna get up close and personal to this!
The guy grabs the collar of his hideous shirt and pulls it a few times before leaning in towards Skylar and his stinky garlic breath goes in her face.
A disgusted look on her face Skylar shoves him away, hard and growls at him.
Skylar: Not tonight buddy
Meanwhile Freeman is on his way back from the bathroom when he catches a glimpse of what is going on at the bar.
The guy grabs a hold of Skylar's arm and she begins pulling against it trying to wriggle free.
Freeman begins sprinting towards the bar and strikes the man in the face with a hard elbow to the face breaking the guys nose and causing him to fall back to the floor.
Freeman mounts the man and starts to punch him viciously blow after blow after blow. Freeman gets to his feet and it can be seen he is seething, taken over with rage almost foaming at the mouth, he looks at the stool and picks it up and turns back to the man, however Skylar jumps in front of him and begins pleading with him.
Skylar: Fraser stop! you're gonna kill him, don't do this! Don't be like this!
Freeman is still just glaring at the man stool hoisted above his head with one hand, not breaking eye contact with the man. He is so engulfed in rage I don’t think he even heard what Skylar said, he is lost the monster has taken over and what the monster wishes to do the monster does!
He pushes sky out of the way with his free arm sending her crashing down to the floor and swings the stool down on top of the man in one fluid motion. He looks down at the bloody mess of a man before his feet and smirks an evil smirk a little the rage still in him. He picks up the bottle of Whiskey off the bar and begins to glug away at it finishing every last drop before slamming the empty bottle down on the bar. Skylar looks up at the man that stands before her a very different Fraser Freeman to the one she has known in complete shock as Freeman turns and walks towards the exit of the bar in his own little world.
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Tuesday 3rd June 2014
Freeman's hotel room
St George, Utah
The scene opens up in Fraser Freeman’s hotel room, he is begining to stir from his slumber wriggling around the bed in his Underpants. He is surrounded by empty cigarette packets and beer cans and the smashed lamp from the previous night is scattered all over the floor. He reaches over to the bedside table and grabs his cellphone, he has 3 new messages he unlocks the phone and opens the first message it is from Jade.
Jade: Frase you scared me last night, I don’t know what is going on with you, this other side of you I cant cope with it, I cant believe you would ever thing I wouldn’t care enough to come be by your side, I love you Frase I have for years, please come back to reality, I want my Fraser back not this monster!
Freeman sighs pulling a upset and remorseful face, he never means to scare or hurt Jade and he knows that she would have been there if she had know. He hates that this other side of him is seemingly ruining the one good thing he has going. He scrolls to the next message which is from Skylar.
Skylar: Fraser... Last night was a surprise, I've never seen you like that before, but I think I understand why you did it. I paid the bar tender $150 to erase cam footage.
Freeman sighs to himself, at this point in time he wishes he was one of those people who get drunk and wake up the next morning with no memory of the night before, he wishes he couldn’t remember his monstrous side taking control and reeking havoc. Unfortunately for him he never forgets! He remembers every second and it makes him feel sick. He remembers treating his beloved Jade like shit, he remembers scaring the living daylights out of young Sky and he remembers beating some poor innocent bystander to within an inch of his life and he is purely disgusted with himself.
He flicks to the final message on his phone this one is from Samuel Johnson
Samuel: Hey Mr Freeman just a text to inform you that on the next Mayhem you will be going one on one with the World Heavyweight Champion Aerynn Donnelly. Good Luck, Samuel Johnson.
He leans over and places his cellphone down on the bedside table and swings round climbing out of bed. He walks through to the adjoining en-suite bathroom and stands in front of the mirror and goes into deep thought as he looks in the mirror.
What have I become? I am spiralling out of control! I barely even recognise the man I see before me in the mirror, the deep set anger in my eyes, the lust for causing mayhem and chaos this is not me! The monster in me seems to be taking over and I must continue to work to control it!
Freeman turns the tap on and splashes water over his face, before reaching to the side and drying his face with a towel. He turns and walks back into the bedroom and walks over to the bed, the bed is one of them raised ones you can store things under. He pulls out his travel back and unzips it, from the back he pulls out a clean t-shirt and a pair of blue jeans and pulls them on. He goes back into the bag and pulls out a notebook and a pen that has journal written on it, he sits down on the edge of the bed and pulls open the journal and begins to write.
June 3rd 2014
Hear I am once more, sat in an old motel scribing my thoughts in my trusty old journal, something that I haven’t been doing nearly enough as of late. But I have to now, I have to write down my inner most thoughts and feelings, I have to look back at this journal and use it to grow, because I have to do everything in my power to cage my inner beast, a beast that is rearing its ugly head way too often as of late.
Last night was one of the worst instances of this, I screamed obscenities at the woman I love and terrified the poor girl, I broke and smashed things, I just hope she can forgive me, I hope she can understand. Then I terrified poor young Skylar by beating a poor man half to death in front of her, I should not be exposing anyone that this dark disgusting side of me let alone two of the people I am suppose to be protecting.
I know why this happened, I know what the cause is, Vince Motherfucking Jones. His assault his declaration of war, it woke up the beast just when I was starting to control it, just when my measures to control it were beginning to work. He has no idea what he has reignited, I am not sure if I can control it when we come face to face, I am not sure I can stop myself from unleashing all that is evil inside me upon him next time we come face to face. He is like a cancer causing damage in my psyche, forming a relapse in my banishment of my inner demon and if I have to utilise the demon to remove the cancer then that is exactly what I will do!
Problem is I am not sure I can control myself at this moment when I step inside a ring, I am not sure I can stop the monster from coming out and causing hurt and pain and that is a big problem because I have just learned that my next opponent is none other than the World Champion Aerynn Donnelly, a woman who I respect greatly, a woman who has proven her worthiness as a champ by backing up her bark with her bite in the ring. A woman who is fighting a worthy cause against a great evil, a great evil that needs removing, hell in this respect we are on very similar paths and that is why I fear facing her at this moment in time.
The last thing I want to do is hurt Aerynn. I don’t want to put her out of action, I don’t want to halt he battle against the Children, but I fear I might do exactly that. Right now the monster can appear at any moment and I hate that, its like a switch that can flip at any second and before I know what has happened all hell has broken loose and chaos and mayhem has ensued. I know I have to keep fighting the good fight, I know I have to keep up my battle against all that is wrong in this company and that means the monster can unleash at any second. I need to continue to show the evils that be that I am a force of destruction, a man who will stand in front of them tall and proud and send them crashing down from there high horse to reality.
This is where a dilemma occurs for me, because if I take out Aerynn if the monster loses control inside the squared circle with her, I could be inadvertently stopping an evil force from getting there just deserts. However I guess that is a risk that has to be taken, if I wish to prove that I am a force, if I wish to deter the evil minded from doing evil deeds I need to set an example I need to unleash all hell on the World Champion and prove my worth as a force to be reckoned with. I just wish it didn’t have to be done this way, I wish I didn’t have to unleash what is brewing inside me on Aerynn, I wish I didn’t have to do what I know I have to do on Mayhem, Aerynn Donnelly is going to have to become an unwanted causality in my fight against all that is wrong. Aerynn Donnelly is going to have to hit Free Fall!
Hear I am once more, sat in an old motel scribing my thoughts in my trusty old journal, something that I haven’t been doing nearly enough as of late. But I have to now, I have to write down my inner most thoughts and feelings, I have to look back at this journal and use it to grow, because I have to do everything in my power to cage my inner beast, a beast that is rearing its ugly head way too often as of late.
Last night was one of the worst instances of this, I screamed obscenities at the woman I love and terrified the poor girl, I broke and smashed things, I just hope she can forgive me, I hope she can understand. Then I terrified poor young Skylar by beating a poor man half to death in front of her, I should not be exposing anyone that this dark disgusting side of me let alone two of the people I am suppose to be protecting.
I know why this happened, I know what the cause is, Vince Motherfucking Jones. His assault his declaration of war, it woke up the beast just when I was starting to control it, just when my measures to control it were beginning to work. He has no idea what he has reignited, I am not sure if I can control it when we come face to face, I am not sure I can stop myself from unleashing all that is evil inside me upon him next time we come face to face. He is like a cancer causing damage in my psyche, forming a relapse in my banishment of my inner demon and if I have to utilise the demon to remove the cancer then that is exactly what I will do!
Problem is I am not sure I can control myself at this moment when I step inside a ring, I am not sure I can stop the monster from coming out and causing hurt and pain and that is a big problem because I have just learned that my next opponent is none other than the World Champion Aerynn Donnelly, a woman who I respect greatly, a woman who has proven her worthiness as a champ by backing up her bark with her bite in the ring. A woman who is fighting a worthy cause against a great evil, a great evil that needs removing, hell in this respect we are on very similar paths and that is why I fear facing her at this moment in time.
The last thing I want to do is hurt Aerynn. I don’t want to put her out of action, I don’t want to halt he battle against the Children, but I fear I might do exactly that. Right now the monster can appear at any moment and I hate that, its like a switch that can flip at any second and before I know what has happened all hell has broken loose and chaos and mayhem has ensued. I know I have to keep fighting the good fight, I know I have to keep up my battle against all that is wrong in this company and that means the monster can unleash at any second. I need to continue to show the evils that be that I am a force of destruction, a man who will stand in front of them tall and proud and send them crashing down from there high horse to reality.
This is where a dilemma occurs for me, because if I take out Aerynn if the monster loses control inside the squared circle with her, I could be inadvertently stopping an evil force from getting there just deserts. However I guess that is a risk that has to be taken, if I wish to prove that I am a force, if I wish to deter the evil minded from doing evil deeds I need to set an example I need to unleash all hell on the World Champion and prove my worth as a force to be reckoned with. I just wish it didn’t have to be done this way, I wish I didn’t have to unleash what is brewing inside me on Aerynn, I wish I didn’t have to do what I know I have to do on Mayhem, Aerynn Donnelly is going to have to become an unwanted causality in my fight against all that is wrong. Aerynn Donnelly is going to have to hit Free Fall!
Freeman closes the journal and places it and the pen back in the bag as the scene fades to black.
