Post by The Perfect Ten KJE on Mar 5, 2014 23:40:19 GMT -6
Addiction- The fact or condition of being addicted to a particular substance, thing, or activity.
Was I addicted? I would say I definitely was. Jason and I might have a rough past, but no matter what happened between us, both in and out of the ring, we always wind up coming back together once more. This time though... this time things were going to be different between the two of us. We both are trying to explore other things about one another. When it comes to both of us... we know one another body inside and out.. but now it's time to explore having an actual relationship and not just a sexual one. With us both in the wrestling career, we always tried to be in the same promotion so that we could travel together, but it didn't really work out that well for us. Relationships in the workplace are bad in my eyes, and those that can handle them I respect.
Love- An intense feeling of deep affection; A person of thing that one loves; feel a deep romantic or sexual attachment to someone.
That explains a lot of things. I already knew it however. Jason is the one man I have been in love with for quite some time, and it's obvious he feels the same way, but for some reason things just seemed to fail in the end. Of course both of us being the jealous type didn't help in the slightest...
Thinking about the past wasn't going to get me far, so it was something I had to stop worrying about. I knew that Jason was my soul-mate, it was now just a matter of making sure we worked through things when and if they went wrong instead of walking away. We have both been through bad things in life, and got threw it all without a problem, so this shouldn't be any different.
The second the call came through saying I had a guest, I felt the butterflies in my stomach. It wasn't like I hadn't just seen him a few days ago or anything... or wait... I had just seen him... but the feeling never went away. It has been over four years and not once has he been around that I haven't felt like a little school girl with her first crush. I was head over heels in love with him, but I was going to make sure things went slow this time around... this time around it was going to be a real relationship... like it should have been from the beginning. The door opened and I stood there with a soft smile on my face and watched as he stepped off the elevator.
“Glad you were able to make it. I wasn't sure there for a minute...”
“I told you I was going to swing on through chick.”
Chick... some would hate the word, but I had grown rather used to it over the last few years. I walked over to him and into his open arms holding him for just a moment too long, making sure my scent was all he could smell, before kissing his cheek and stepping back.
“When do you have to leave?”
“First thing in the morning.”
I hated the sound of that... but the good thing was getting to spend time with him for the rest of the evening at least. I had dinner in the oven, and wine all set to go, after we would enjoy a movie and relax on the couch before retiring for the night... it would all go great....
….and it did.
It was just barely past dawn break when I felt Jason's lips pressing against my forehead and listened as he whispered his goodbye before leaving my place trying to make sure he didn't wake me. It was no use though, I had woken the second he slid his arm out from under my head. I continued to lay there acting as if I was asleep until after he left. Once I was sure he was gone I sat up and looked around only to realize how truly alone I felt when he wasn't around.... I hated it.
“It's funny when you think about it... how attached to someone you can be and at the same time want nothing more than to be as far away from them as possible because you know they are nothing but trouble. I know all about that feeling. When Jason and I first met it was nothing but love and hate back and forth. When we were together... the connection was amazing... sparks would fly... but the second something went wrong to set either of us off... it would be world war ten. No matter how much we hated one another though, we always wound up back together in the end... the connection we have is amazing. You know all about what I am speaking of Jeszika, don't you? I have seen what has been going on with you and Brody... everyone has. To deny it would be pretty damn stupid, and I am hoping you are brighter than that...”
If she honestly was or not I didn't give a damn. Honestly she seemed more like a blonde bimbo to me but who was I to judge? I was judged for years, and still am. I honestly just stopped giving a damn about what everyone else thinks about me.
“Whatever goes on in either of our personal problems doesn't really matter though does it? What we need to worry about is what's going to happen once we step into the ring.... and that is battle until one of us doesn't have any more fight left within. I might have lost my debut match... but you had better believe it wasn't without fighting my ass off beforehand and being unlucky with it being a triple threat. This week will be just as hard a battle, but now I am hungrier than before to prove just exactly how much of a bad ass bitch I truly am.”
Was I addicted? I would say I definitely was. Jason and I might have a rough past, but no matter what happened between us, both in and out of the ring, we always wind up coming back together once more. This time though... this time things were going to be different between the two of us. We both are trying to explore other things about one another. When it comes to both of us... we know one another body inside and out.. but now it's time to explore having an actual relationship and not just a sexual one. With us both in the wrestling career, we always tried to be in the same promotion so that we could travel together, but it didn't really work out that well for us. Relationships in the workplace are bad in my eyes, and those that can handle them I respect.
Love- An intense feeling of deep affection; A person of thing that one loves; feel a deep romantic or sexual attachment to someone.
That explains a lot of things. I already knew it however. Jason is the one man I have been in love with for quite some time, and it's obvious he feels the same way, but for some reason things just seemed to fail in the end. Of course both of us being the jealous type didn't help in the slightest...
Thinking about the past wasn't going to get me far, so it was something I had to stop worrying about. I knew that Jason was my soul-mate, it was now just a matter of making sure we worked through things when and if they went wrong instead of walking away. We have both been through bad things in life, and got threw it all without a problem, so this shouldn't be any different.
The second the call came through saying I had a guest, I felt the butterflies in my stomach. It wasn't like I hadn't just seen him a few days ago or anything... or wait... I had just seen him... but the feeling never went away. It has been over four years and not once has he been around that I haven't felt like a little school girl with her first crush. I was head over heels in love with him, but I was going to make sure things went slow this time around... this time around it was going to be a real relationship... like it should have been from the beginning. The door opened and I stood there with a soft smile on my face and watched as he stepped off the elevator.
“Glad you were able to make it. I wasn't sure there for a minute...”
“I told you I was going to swing on through chick.”
Chick... some would hate the word, but I had grown rather used to it over the last few years. I walked over to him and into his open arms holding him for just a moment too long, making sure my scent was all he could smell, before kissing his cheek and stepping back.
“When do you have to leave?”
“First thing in the morning.”
I hated the sound of that... but the good thing was getting to spend time with him for the rest of the evening at least. I had dinner in the oven, and wine all set to go, after we would enjoy a movie and relax on the couch before retiring for the night... it would all go great....
….and it did.
It was just barely past dawn break when I felt Jason's lips pressing against my forehead and listened as he whispered his goodbye before leaving my place trying to make sure he didn't wake me. It was no use though, I had woken the second he slid his arm out from under my head. I continued to lay there acting as if I was asleep until after he left. Once I was sure he was gone I sat up and looked around only to realize how truly alone I felt when he wasn't around.... I hated it.
“It's funny when you think about it... how attached to someone you can be and at the same time want nothing more than to be as far away from them as possible because you know they are nothing but trouble. I know all about that feeling. When Jason and I first met it was nothing but love and hate back and forth. When we were together... the connection was amazing... sparks would fly... but the second something went wrong to set either of us off... it would be world war ten. No matter how much we hated one another though, we always wound up back together in the end... the connection we have is amazing. You know all about what I am speaking of Jeszika, don't you? I have seen what has been going on with you and Brody... everyone has. To deny it would be pretty damn stupid, and I am hoping you are brighter than that...”
If she honestly was or not I didn't give a damn. Honestly she seemed more like a blonde bimbo to me but who was I to judge? I was judged for years, and still am. I honestly just stopped giving a damn about what everyone else thinks about me.
“Whatever goes on in either of our personal problems doesn't really matter though does it? What we need to worry about is what's going to happen once we step into the ring.... and that is battle until one of us doesn't have any more fight left within. I might have lost my debut match... but you had better believe it wasn't without fighting my ass off beforehand and being unlucky with it being a triple threat. This week will be just as hard a battle, but now I am hungrier than before to prove just exactly how much of a bad ass bitch I truly am.”
