Post by K.I.S.S. on Feb 6, 2015 23:00:20 GMT -6
February 4, 2015
Bethany Kenyon sits on the edge of Carrie Winter’s bed in Carrie’s apartment in the back of Prey, head in her hands as she waits for word. Bethany had stayed behind after Carrie had come back here from the home of their mutual friend, Nikki Peltier, and gotten exceptionally intoxicated upon arrival. Bethany had been at another mutual friend’s house, UWA World Heavyweight Champion Jeszika Gautier, with Jeszika and Jeszika’s male friend, Kristian Devereaux. Bethany, Jeszika and Kristian had raced over to Prey to check on Carrie and rushed her out to get her away from her poisons of choice and Bethany had remained in order to clean up the mess left behind. Now, as she sits here, one of those voices has returned. Just then Jeszika Gautier walks up to the door and knocks on it. She hadn't heard from Bethany since they rushed out and she was slightly worried. Bethany looks up.
Bethany Kenyon: Hi, Jez, is Carrie... ok?
Jeszika Gautier: yeah she's ok now. Kris is looking after her. Are... are you ok?
Bethany shrugs.
Bethany Kenyon: I'm...
Jeszika frowns coming to sit down next to Bethany.
Jeszika Gautier: B... what's wrong?
Bethany shrugs.
Bethany Kenyon: I got cleaning, somehow managed to make more of a mess. Some of the coke went flying and hit me right in the face, so now I'm waiting for it to wear off so i don't go home to Brody while still high... and I feel like a fucking idiot…
Jeszika puts her arm around Bethany.
Jeszika Gautier: Oh, B... now I wish I had stayed behind. I'm sorry we left you to clean up alone.
Bethany shrugs.
Bethany Kenyon: It's not your fault, I should have been more careful. At least she had a vacuum cleaner so I didn't leave it all over.
Bethany glances around the room.
Bethany Kenyon: I don't wanna know what she would have done if I'd left all that shit on the floor.
Jeszika Gautier: I'd be scared to know too. She's really freaked out by all this stuff with my stalker guy. I wish I could help her but I don't know how.
Bethany turns to face her.
Bethany Kenyon: You just have to be there for her and hope she makes the choice herself.
Jeszika Gautier: Ok, I'll be there for her in any way I can. Kris will too, he'll be there when I can't, but, B... will you be ok? This won't cause any problems will it? You won't relapse will you?
Bethany shakes her head.
Bethany Kenyon: I feel more ashamed for having made the mess than I do an urge to dive to the floor and snort it up or get it out of the vacuum.
Jeszika Gautier: B, don't feel ashamed. It's only a little mess…
Bethany manages a laugh.
Bethany Kenyon: Well, it WAS only a little mess. I made it a little bigger.
She pauses before patting Jeszika’s thigh.
Bethany Kenyon: What about you? This can’t have been easy for you to see an open bottle and fresh powder on the slopes just waiting to be hoovered...
Jeszika Gautier: All I wanted to do was inhale it all... if not for Kris... I would have.
Bethany Kenyon: Nik and I would stopped you…
She pauses, bowing her head.
Bethany Kenyon: Even if you'd said you didn't want us to.
Jeszika Gautier: Thank you, B... I appreciate it.
Nodding, Bethany sighs.
Bethany Kenyon: Is it sad that I'm almost happy Ash wasn't here for this?
Jeszika Gautier: Not at all.
Bethany shakes her head in disbelief and disgust with herself.
Bethany Kenyon: I shouldn't feel like that about my little sister...
Bethany sighs.
Bethany Kenyon: Course, that might also be the remnants of the coke talking.
Jeszika Gautier: Could very well be. Under the influence, we do tend say things we don't mean.
Bethany nods knowingly.
Bethany Kenyon: We been there a couple of times, haven’t we?
Nodding, Jeszika smiles.
Jeszika Gautier: Yep we have, haven't we? Yet, here we stand, still friends and still alive and kicking.
Bethany nods again.
Bethany Kenyon: Makes me wonder what would have happened if I had been sober those times... how different would I have reacted?
Jeszika Gautier: Things would have been a lot different if I was sober…
Bethany Kenyon: Good or bad?
Jeszika shakes her head almost absently.
Jeszika Gautier: Not sure.
She pauses, pondering.
Jeszika Gautier: I know I wouldn't have said those things to you like I did.... but I might not have coped so poorly when Melissa left. I wasn't in a good way back then... at all...
Swallowing hard, Bethany nods.
Bethany Kenyon: I wonder where we would be if we'd managed that earlier. It's actually scarier to me to think, if we'd been sober back when we…
She pauses, searching for the right words.
Bethany Kenyon: Reno…
She grimaces at the sound of the word rolling off her tongue.
Bethany Kenyon: That we'd have never met Carrie or Melissa, Ashley'd have never met Billy, Nik'd have never met Richie, and so on...
Jeszika Gautier: It’s amazing how one event can change so much. If I hadn't have hooked up with Brody, I wouldn't have been in the bondage bar where I met Melissa and even you may not have met Brody. Without all of that I wouldn't have met Kris…
Bethany nods.
Bethany Kenyon: Too true…
Jeszika Gautier: Everything happens for a reason and builds character. We just need to decide how we let those things build us.
Taking a deep breath, Bethany sits back slightly.
Bethany Kenyon: Are you ever afraid of what might happen in a match?
She cocks her head, unsure if she should be hoping for or against a negative response.
Bethany Kenyon: Like against me or Sentinel or... anybody really?
Jeszika takes a deep breath.
Jeszika Gautier: I try not to. Fear leads to doubt and doubt leads to mistakes, but there have been a few times where I'd been a little scared yes...
Bethany nods.
Bethany Kenyon: I am every time... sorta like when we'd work a job and I knew if I didn't wire the stuff right, it wouldn't go boom and we'd all be in big trouble.
Jeszika Gautier: See if I ever showed my doubt back when we worked jobs I'd probably the man I was playing with would have blown my brains out in a heartbeat.... no questions asked. I wouldn't let myself doubt or be scared... not when I was face to face with them. I had to be exactly what they needed to me to be and I had to keep my cool.
Bethany turns back to her feet, nodding slowly.
Bethany Kenyon: Ash’s told me before she doesn’t get scared either but I always think she’s full of shit in a way.
Jeszika Gautier: You'd be silly not to fear even just a little…
Bethany snickers nervously.
Bethany Kenyon: Yeah but you know our little adrenaline junkie…
Jeszika Gautier: Hey, I'm an adrenaline junkie too but I also have a little fear.
Bethany shoots Jeszika a knowing look.
Bethany Kenyon: Who do we know who's as big an adrenaline junkie as Ash?
Almost laughing, Jeszika’s jaw drops at her friend’s implication.
Jeszika Gautier: Me? I mean, hello, who's the one who's done the biggest ass bungee jumps and stuff? And, hello, roller coaster queen right here. The fear is what makes it fun. Without fear it's boring. You need fear to release the adrenaline.
Bethany shakes her head.
Bethany Kenyon: You’ve never taken the kind of reckless risks she does, Jezzy. You’d never try and work a job alone like that and you know it.
Jeszika Gautier: That's not being an adrenaline junkie... that's just being rash and reckless.
Bethany Kenyon: Scares the hell out of me…
Jeszika Gautier: Yeah, me too.
Bethany stares ahead and then shakes her head.
Bethany Kenyon: Very few things scare me as badly as she does when she gets like that.
Jeszika Gautier: Does she know that?
Bethany nods.
Bethany Kenyon: Yeah, we've had that talk…
She trails off for a second and nods slowly.
Bethany Kenyon: Reminds me of when Mama got sick and there was nothing we could do. Carrie's starting to make me feel like that too with how she is.
Gritting her teeth, she manages to look Jeszika in the eyes.
Bethany Kenyon: You did too for a while there...
Jeszika Gautier: I'll help Carrie get better too... I promise.
Bethany swallows hard.
Bethany Kenyon: Don't…
She looks away, a balled up fist rising up from the bed.
Bethany Kenyon: Don't promise me we can help her for sure. You should know from your own demons, we can't make that promise because there's always the chance she won't let us keep it. I love Carrie, just like I love you, Jezzy, but all we can do is promise to try and help... the rest is up to her.
Jeszika Gautier: That's true…
She pauses and looks down for a moment.
Jeszika Gautier: It terrifies me that I may fail to help her and come home to her... in the bathroom... razor blades... needles and I won't be able to help her...
Bethany nods.
Bethany Kenyon: How close do you think this got to being us… like.. permanently?
Jeszika Gautier: Very close.
Bethany nods.
Bethany Kenyon: I know Ash was on the edge… do you think Nikki ever…?
Jeszika Gautier: Nik’s always been the more leveled headed one out of all of us. I don't think I've ever seen her get anywhere near where we were.
Bethany nods in relief.
Bethany Kenyon: I'm kinda glad we never had to worry about finding her facedown in the rain like we have... others…
She smiles.
Bethany Kenyon: I'm glad none of us ever went there.
Jeszika Gautier: Me too, like I said, we're still alive and kicking.
Bethany hugs Jeszika.
Bethany Kenyon: Me too... you ready to go home?
Jeszika Gautier: Only if you are.
Bethany nods.
Bethany Kenyon: Let's go…
Jeszika Gautier: After you.
Bethany stands up and she and Jeszika make their way out to Jeszika’s car for the ride back to Jeszika’s house and Bethany’s waiting vehicle.
February 6, 2014
Sitting before her laptop’s webcam, Bethany Kenyon makes sure it’s set properly before sitting down on her bed at home. As she steps back, she glances towards the door to see if anyone is coming. Satisfied that she won’t be interrupted, Bethany makes her way to the door, slides it gently so that it closes with a minimum of noise and then walks back to the bed. She sits down and nods to the camera.
Bethany Kenyon: They say confession is good for the soul, or, at least it can be…
Leaning forward, she folds her hands in front of her, elbows on knees.
Bethany Kenyon: I suppose that’s what admitting you’re afraid is like, isn’t it? You’re faced with something dangerous, it scares you and in most cases, it probably should on some level especially when injury and death are involved.
She takes a deep breath before nodding slowly, her eyes moving her gaze down from the camera to her feet.
Bethany Kenyon: I’ve been afraid of many things, be it in the ring, in training or just walking the street.
Blinking slightly, she sighs heavily.
Bethany Kenyon: I was afraid every time we went out on a job, especially if I knew it was going to come down to whether I had done my part correctly. There’s nothing like having to hope you’d used the right wires knowing if you didn’t or you didn’t put them in right, you’re friends might not come back to make you check twice before you push the button.
Her gaze slowly moves back up bringing with it her right hand like she’s gonna enumerate a list of things.
Bethany Kenyon: I was afraid when my Mama was sick…
A second finger is added.
Bethany Kenyon: I was afraid when I walked in on my sister doing something she really shouldn’t have been doing…
A third finger is added.
Bethany Kenyon: I was afraid when I had to get in the ring with people I love and wrestle them for real…
A fourth finger pops up.
Bethany Kenyon: And if I’m honest, I’m afraid every time I get into the ring because I know what could happen. It’s the kind of fear that makes you make damn sure you’re prepared and really ready to go for the gusto because if you’re not, if you hesitate just a little…
She shakes her head as her hand lowers to the bed next to her.
Bethany Kenyon: That’s when you don’t just lose the match, but you lose things like consciousness, body parts and maybe more. At first, I used to think it meant something was wrong with me.
She shrugs, looking mildly ashamed.
Bethany Kenyon: I mean, shouldn’t it go away as you train and your skills sharpen?
Nodding, she looks like she might just laugh slightly at herself.
Bethany Kenyon: But then I started to see, the more afraid I was, the more nervous I was before matches… the better I tended to do in those matches. It was the ones I felt less of that, that I tended to make stupid little mistakes that I’d end up kicking myself for later.
She swallows hard and nods to the camera.
Bethany Kenyon: That’s what I’m feeling with this match. I’m nervous as all hell but to me, that’s a good thing because it means I’m paying attention to everything going on around me and not just blowing this off. This is a chance to show something I never thought I’d get a chance to show. When I came to UWA, it was for a nice part-time job and to see what I could do in this setting. I would have been happy with just holding my own as a tag team with my sister because that’s what we came here to do, make good as a tag team and win the gold. It never occurred to me that we would be talking about something beyond that because that goal seemed like it was so far away and now…
She shrugs.
Bethany Kenyon: Now it seems like I should have been aiming higher the whole time and I feel like an idiot for not looking at the top all along. Sentinel, whether he’s wearing the gold or not, is that top everyone should be aiming to test themselves against. I remember when this place first opened, you were something to aspire to. You have been the measuring stick since day one and now it’s my turn…
Standing up, Bethany cocks her head nervously.
Bethany Kenyon: It’s both terrifying and exhilarating to be where I am, to feel like you’re staring down the barrel of a gun and one of two things is gonna happen. Either I’m gonna manage to get out of the way or I’m gonna go down with a really big bang and to tell you the truth, I honestly don’t know which one is gonna hurt more…
She shrugs, smiling hopefully.
Bethany Kenyon: But that’s the fun right? Live or die, make your choice, buy the ticket and take the ride and hope you picked the right one! I don’t know which way we’re going but I do know the day I don’t feel this way before a match like this is the day I should sit my ass down and start knitting or something that allows me to just stay home so thank you, Sentinel, for being you. This is gonna hurt, this is gonna be fun and I wouldn’t have it any other way…
She smiles and nods to the camera.
Bethany Kenyon: May the best competitor win!
Bethany Kenyon sits on the edge of Carrie Winter’s bed in Carrie’s apartment in the back of Prey, head in her hands as she waits for word. Bethany had stayed behind after Carrie had come back here from the home of their mutual friend, Nikki Peltier, and gotten exceptionally intoxicated upon arrival. Bethany had been at another mutual friend’s house, UWA World Heavyweight Champion Jeszika Gautier, with Jeszika and Jeszika’s male friend, Kristian Devereaux. Bethany, Jeszika and Kristian had raced over to Prey to check on Carrie and rushed her out to get her away from her poisons of choice and Bethany had remained in order to clean up the mess left behind. Now, as she sits here, one of those voices has returned. Just then Jeszika Gautier walks up to the door and knocks on it. She hadn't heard from Bethany since they rushed out and she was slightly worried. Bethany looks up.
Bethany Kenyon: Hi, Jez, is Carrie... ok?
Jeszika Gautier: yeah she's ok now. Kris is looking after her. Are... are you ok?
Bethany shrugs.
Bethany Kenyon: I'm...
Jeszika frowns coming to sit down next to Bethany.
Jeszika Gautier: B... what's wrong?
Bethany shrugs.
Bethany Kenyon: I got cleaning, somehow managed to make more of a mess. Some of the coke went flying and hit me right in the face, so now I'm waiting for it to wear off so i don't go home to Brody while still high... and I feel like a fucking idiot…
Jeszika puts her arm around Bethany.
Jeszika Gautier: Oh, B... now I wish I had stayed behind. I'm sorry we left you to clean up alone.
Bethany shrugs.
Bethany Kenyon: It's not your fault, I should have been more careful. At least she had a vacuum cleaner so I didn't leave it all over.
Bethany glances around the room.
Bethany Kenyon: I don't wanna know what she would have done if I'd left all that shit on the floor.
Jeszika Gautier: I'd be scared to know too. She's really freaked out by all this stuff with my stalker guy. I wish I could help her but I don't know how.
Bethany turns to face her.
Bethany Kenyon: You just have to be there for her and hope she makes the choice herself.
Jeszika Gautier: Ok, I'll be there for her in any way I can. Kris will too, he'll be there when I can't, but, B... will you be ok? This won't cause any problems will it? You won't relapse will you?
Bethany shakes her head.
Bethany Kenyon: I feel more ashamed for having made the mess than I do an urge to dive to the floor and snort it up or get it out of the vacuum.
Jeszika Gautier: B, don't feel ashamed. It's only a little mess…
Bethany manages a laugh.
Bethany Kenyon: Well, it WAS only a little mess. I made it a little bigger.
She pauses before patting Jeszika’s thigh.
Bethany Kenyon: What about you? This can’t have been easy for you to see an open bottle and fresh powder on the slopes just waiting to be hoovered...
Jeszika Gautier: All I wanted to do was inhale it all... if not for Kris... I would have.
Bethany Kenyon: Nik and I would stopped you…
She pauses, bowing her head.
Bethany Kenyon: Even if you'd said you didn't want us to.
Jeszika Gautier: Thank you, B... I appreciate it.
Nodding, Bethany sighs.
Bethany Kenyon: Is it sad that I'm almost happy Ash wasn't here for this?
Jeszika Gautier: Not at all.
Bethany shakes her head in disbelief and disgust with herself.
Bethany Kenyon: I shouldn't feel like that about my little sister...
Bethany sighs.
Bethany Kenyon: Course, that might also be the remnants of the coke talking.
Jeszika Gautier: Could very well be. Under the influence, we do tend say things we don't mean.
Bethany nods knowingly.
Bethany Kenyon: We been there a couple of times, haven’t we?
Nodding, Jeszika smiles.
Jeszika Gautier: Yep we have, haven't we? Yet, here we stand, still friends and still alive and kicking.
Bethany nods again.
Bethany Kenyon: Makes me wonder what would have happened if I had been sober those times... how different would I have reacted?
Jeszika Gautier: Things would have been a lot different if I was sober…
Bethany Kenyon: Good or bad?
Jeszika shakes her head almost absently.
Jeszika Gautier: Not sure.
She pauses, pondering.
Jeszika Gautier: I know I wouldn't have said those things to you like I did.... but I might not have coped so poorly when Melissa left. I wasn't in a good way back then... at all...
Swallowing hard, Bethany nods.
Bethany Kenyon: I wonder where we would be if we'd managed that earlier. It's actually scarier to me to think, if we'd been sober back when we…
She pauses, searching for the right words.
Bethany Kenyon: Reno…
She grimaces at the sound of the word rolling off her tongue.
Bethany Kenyon: That we'd have never met Carrie or Melissa, Ashley'd have never met Billy, Nik'd have never met Richie, and so on...
Jeszika Gautier: It’s amazing how one event can change so much. If I hadn't have hooked up with Brody, I wouldn't have been in the bondage bar where I met Melissa and even you may not have met Brody. Without all of that I wouldn't have met Kris…
Bethany nods.
Bethany Kenyon: Too true…
Jeszika Gautier: Everything happens for a reason and builds character. We just need to decide how we let those things build us.
Taking a deep breath, Bethany sits back slightly.
Bethany Kenyon: Are you ever afraid of what might happen in a match?
She cocks her head, unsure if she should be hoping for or against a negative response.
Bethany Kenyon: Like against me or Sentinel or... anybody really?
Jeszika takes a deep breath.
Jeszika Gautier: I try not to. Fear leads to doubt and doubt leads to mistakes, but there have been a few times where I'd been a little scared yes...
Bethany nods.
Bethany Kenyon: I am every time... sorta like when we'd work a job and I knew if I didn't wire the stuff right, it wouldn't go boom and we'd all be in big trouble.
Jeszika Gautier: See if I ever showed my doubt back when we worked jobs I'd probably the man I was playing with would have blown my brains out in a heartbeat.... no questions asked. I wouldn't let myself doubt or be scared... not when I was face to face with them. I had to be exactly what they needed to me to be and I had to keep my cool.
Bethany turns back to her feet, nodding slowly.
Bethany Kenyon: Ash’s told me before she doesn’t get scared either but I always think she’s full of shit in a way.
Jeszika Gautier: You'd be silly not to fear even just a little…
Bethany snickers nervously.
Bethany Kenyon: Yeah but you know our little adrenaline junkie…
Jeszika Gautier: Hey, I'm an adrenaline junkie too but I also have a little fear.
Bethany shoots Jeszika a knowing look.
Bethany Kenyon: Who do we know who's as big an adrenaline junkie as Ash?
Almost laughing, Jeszika’s jaw drops at her friend’s implication.
Jeszika Gautier: Me? I mean, hello, who's the one who's done the biggest ass bungee jumps and stuff? And, hello, roller coaster queen right here. The fear is what makes it fun. Without fear it's boring. You need fear to release the adrenaline.
Bethany shakes her head.
Bethany Kenyon: You’ve never taken the kind of reckless risks she does, Jezzy. You’d never try and work a job alone like that and you know it.
Jeszika Gautier: That's not being an adrenaline junkie... that's just being rash and reckless.
Bethany Kenyon: Scares the hell out of me…
Jeszika Gautier: Yeah, me too.
Bethany stares ahead and then shakes her head.
Bethany Kenyon: Very few things scare me as badly as she does when she gets like that.
Jeszika Gautier: Does she know that?
Bethany nods.
Bethany Kenyon: Yeah, we've had that talk…
She trails off for a second and nods slowly.
Bethany Kenyon: Reminds me of when Mama got sick and there was nothing we could do. Carrie's starting to make me feel like that too with how she is.
Gritting her teeth, she manages to look Jeszika in the eyes.
Bethany Kenyon: You did too for a while there...
Jeszika Gautier: I'll help Carrie get better too... I promise.
Bethany swallows hard.
Bethany Kenyon: Don't…
She looks away, a balled up fist rising up from the bed.
Bethany Kenyon: Don't promise me we can help her for sure. You should know from your own demons, we can't make that promise because there's always the chance she won't let us keep it. I love Carrie, just like I love you, Jezzy, but all we can do is promise to try and help... the rest is up to her.
Jeszika Gautier: That's true…
She pauses and looks down for a moment.
Jeszika Gautier: It terrifies me that I may fail to help her and come home to her... in the bathroom... razor blades... needles and I won't be able to help her...
Bethany nods.
Bethany Kenyon: How close do you think this got to being us… like.. permanently?
Jeszika Gautier: Very close.
Bethany nods.
Bethany Kenyon: I know Ash was on the edge… do you think Nikki ever…?
Jeszika Gautier: Nik’s always been the more leveled headed one out of all of us. I don't think I've ever seen her get anywhere near where we were.
Bethany nods in relief.
Bethany Kenyon: I'm kinda glad we never had to worry about finding her facedown in the rain like we have... others…
She smiles.
Bethany Kenyon: I'm glad none of us ever went there.
Jeszika Gautier: Me too, like I said, we're still alive and kicking.
Bethany hugs Jeszika.
Bethany Kenyon: Me too... you ready to go home?
Jeszika Gautier: Only if you are.
Bethany nods.
Bethany Kenyon: Let's go…
Jeszika Gautier: After you.
Bethany stands up and she and Jeszika make their way out to Jeszika’s car for the ride back to Jeszika’s house and Bethany’s waiting vehicle.
February 6, 2014
Sitting before her laptop’s webcam, Bethany Kenyon makes sure it’s set properly before sitting down on her bed at home. As she steps back, she glances towards the door to see if anyone is coming. Satisfied that she won’t be interrupted, Bethany makes her way to the door, slides it gently so that it closes with a minimum of noise and then walks back to the bed. She sits down and nods to the camera.
Bethany Kenyon: They say confession is good for the soul, or, at least it can be…
Leaning forward, she folds her hands in front of her, elbows on knees.
Bethany Kenyon: I suppose that’s what admitting you’re afraid is like, isn’t it? You’re faced with something dangerous, it scares you and in most cases, it probably should on some level especially when injury and death are involved.
She takes a deep breath before nodding slowly, her eyes moving her gaze down from the camera to her feet.
Bethany Kenyon: I’ve been afraid of many things, be it in the ring, in training or just walking the street.
Blinking slightly, she sighs heavily.
Bethany Kenyon: I was afraid every time we went out on a job, especially if I knew it was going to come down to whether I had done my part correctly. There’s nothing like having to hope you’d used the right wires knowing if you didn’t or you didn’t put them in right, you’re friends might not come back to make you check twice before you push the button.
Her gaze slowly moves back up bringing with it her right hand like she’s gonna enumerate a list of things.
Bethany Kenyon: I was afraid when my Mama was sick…
A second finger is added.
Bethany Kenyon: I was afraid when I walked in on my sister doing something she really shouldn’t have been doing…
A third finger is added.
Bethany Kenyon: I was afraid when I had to get in the ring with people I love and wrestle them for real…
A fourth finger pops up.
Bethany Kenyon: And if I’m honest, I’m afraid every time I get into the ring because I know what could happen. It’s the kind of fear that makes you make damn sure you’re prepared and really ready to go for the gusto because if you’re not, if you hesitate just a little…
She shakes her head as her hand lowers to the bed next to her.
Bethany Kenyon: That’s when you don’t just lose the match, but you lose things like consciousness, body parts and maybe more. At first, I used to think it meant something was wrong with me.
She shrugs, looking mildly ashamed.
Bethany Kenyon: I mean, shouldn’t it go away as you train and your skills sharpen?
Nodding, she looks like she might just laugh slightly at herself.
Bethany Kenyon: But then I started to see, the more afraid I was, the more nervous I was before matches… the better I tended to do in those matches. It was the ones I felt less of that, that I tended to make stupid little mistakes that I’d end up kicking myself for later.
She swallows hard and nods to the camera.
Bethany Kenyon: That’s what I’m feeling with this match. I’m nervous as all hell but to me, that’s a good thing because it means I’m paying attention to everything going on around me and not just blowing this off. This is a chance to show something I never thought I’d get a chance to show. When I came to UWA, it was for a nice part-time job and to see what I could do in this setting. I would have been happy with just holding my own as a tag team with my sister because that’s what we came here to do, make good as a tag team and win the gold. It never occurred to me that we would be talking about something beyond that because that goal seemed like it was so far away and now…
She shrugs.
Bethany Kenyon: Now it seems like I should have been aiming higher the whole time and I feel like an idiot for not looking at the top all along. Sentinel, whether he’s wearing the gold or not, is that top everyone should be aiming to test themselves against. I remember when this place first opened, you were something to aspire to. You have been the measuring stick since day one and now it’s my turn…
Standing up, Bethany cocks her head nervously.
Bethany Kenyon: It’s both terrifying and exhilarating to be where I am, to feel like you’re staring down the barrel of a gun and one of two things is gonna happen. Either I’m gonna manage to get out of the way or I’m gonna go down with a really big bang and to tell you the truth, I honestly don’t know which one is gonna hurt more…
She shrugs, smiling hopefully.
Bethany Kenyon: But that’s the fun right? Live or die, make your choice, buy the ticket and take the ride and hope you picked the right one! I don’t know which way we’re going but I do know the day I don’t feel this way before a match like this is the day I should sit my ass down and start knitting or something that allows me to just stay home so thank you, Sentinel, for being you. This is gonna hurt, this is gonna be fun and I wouldn’t have it any other way…
She smiles and nods to the camera.
Bethany Kenyon: May the best competitor win!
